Early Morning...

it's early sunday morning. i'm up and haven't slept too much. i blame myself for the other day's long time nap i took. i know i shouldn't sleep all day like that, but i can't help it sometimes. i guess this comes from not having a job and being depressed pretty much always, but eh. i'm still in a good mood though. i have some plans today after church. i'm going to a friends birthday party, so i'm looking forward to that. there isn't much else to write at the moment. i just felt like i should type something for the sake of typing. hmm, well i guess i could write down a question. this question is something i've been thinking over in my head for a while now. when will i find that special someone in my life??? yeah, this isn't the best of subjects, but i'm serious. i actually thought i might have found her a few years ago, but that didn't work out. i'm still crushed over that memory, so because of that, it makes my present attitude feel a little clouded. i can't seem to climb over the next hill. my effort in helping myself to get over the past isn't at it's full peak. i'm still clinging onto what i once thought was a good thing. oh man, do i miss her so. it's hard to live each day, knowing that someone out there was a very important part of your life, and yet they are no longer what was. she is still around, living her life. i know this because we keep in contact sometimes, which is actually a hard thing to handle. i like to be nice and caring for her when she feels down and out, but i sometimes feel the same way, and as for me, there isn't anyone to talk to about such feelings. i mean, i don't think she minds me telling her about myself, but i don't want to throw all my baggage onto her. over the years in my life, i've been the handler of some heavy issues with family and friends. a lot of people trust me. i'm glad that they do, but it's sometimes too much to take in. i wouldn't mind letting some steam off myself. it's just that my faults and actions are sometimes too much for me to even think about, let alone tell someone whom i care for. i have always been one to keep things in. never to go and speak on my behalf. i never felt more alive though, than when i first got with her. she made me believe in myself and because of that, i developed more freedom to speak. we both had many conversations, and i really REALLY miss that. we each shared some past experiences that we wouldn't tell anyone else. it all happened, and i miss it so much...

to get out of this current mood and typing situation, here is a band i like called, Lemuria.



one of the best female fronted bands i've heard in a long time, lemuria are exploding in the underground, indie/emo movement and don't show any signs of slowing down. they play a great mix of pop rock, and emo with just the right amount of indie quirkiness that people spill over. formed in 2004 in buffalo, new york, lemuria have made several releases and toured all over in just a short amount of time. to describe this trio better, i guess i would have to make all the same comparisons to bands like, Discount, Copper, Idle Hands, and Slingshot Dakota. also throw in a little, Get Up Kids and The Ergs and you have a pretty good description maybe. asian man records has released their one and only debut album titled, Get Better and i have that here today. also tagging along, is their early music collection titled, The First Collection. be sure to grab a hold of these and run with it because this is the right amount of pop and rock to make anyone feel better. (and that includes me!!!)


http://www.mediafire.com/?mllmnz90cw4


http://www.mediafire.com/?030zz1qxs3i

enjoy your sunday...