R.I.P....

I've had this blog for a long while. I have come to both love and hate it during its time. As of right now, something has happened to me while on vacation. I've left Coachella early and taking my time going home. Life always has different things for you. It's just handed me my next move to take.

I feel no need to keep this blog going.

It'll be left up though. Maybe to be discovered somewhere down the line...

Thanks to any and all readers I've had. It's nice to know that someone read my words. Take care, God bless.

- Schuyler Deal

Calm Before The Show...

pre-day 1 to Coachella. i'm in my tent and ready for bed. the day was good. a long stretch from Phoenix to Cali, but nice nonetheless.

security scanned my camping pass and it came up invalid. that was scary scary. much thanks goes out to the lady who let me through anyway.

i'm really here. in the flesh. i'm excited. i miss my honey bee though. next time she'll be with me. Next time...

well, that's it for now. gotta save my phone juice. much to do tomorrow. this is schuyler at Coachella 2012 signing off. g'night everyone. sweet dreamzzz...

War Pony Is Sleeping...

i'm in Flagstaff. i'm tired. i'm going to bed. i'm on my own. i'm happy.

tomorrow is the final leg to Coachella. i'm ready. so ready...

My Direction Is West...

my great adventure starts tomorrow morning. off to Coachella i go. i'm looking forward to an awesome time and have high hopes for wonderful memories.

God watch over me as i travel. i ask for journey mercies.

stay tuned to this blog. i'll do my best to update every night. dig it...

In Just A While...

i'm at dads washing clothes. the weather is bad here in oklahoma. still, despite that and my sore stomach, i'm still terribly excited about my trip to Coachella next week. i'm leaving on Wednesday. its going to be a lllllooooooonnnnnnggggg drive...

i'll be trying my best to update my blog during the trip and concert. i'll mostly be upping pics to instagram. it looks to be a fun time i hope. :p

April 8th, 2012...

I take a lot of things for granted. One thing I surely do is forget God's mercy and grace. I've been dealing with my own personal issues without his help. That cannot be done. I've been getting more and more involved with worldly nature. That is not good. I've been struggling to come to terms with my own personal self. It's askew and not easy to straighten. I let impure thoughts plague my mind. God lives in me. I shouldn't let him be near such troubling stuff.

Today is Easter Sunday. The most important day in our lives. God died on the cross for us. He took all our sins. There is no way we can pay him back for what he did. We are not worthy. I am not a good Christian. I try my best most of the time, but fail to carry that fact. God has had mercy on me since I was born. Through a wealth of dysfunctional family life, (a parents divorce, domestic violence, lies, hate), to me almost killing myself back in college, God has shown me mercy and has protected me. He has let me go through hardships in order to learn and become a man of something he see's fit. I am still here and still living, but all of that couldn't have happened without God's mercy and the sacrifice Jesus made when he died on the cross.

This is Easter Sunday. The most important day of the year...

A Time Of Reflection...

this will be Easter weekend. its an important time to remember the meaning of why God died for our sins. there's no shame in admitting my Christian faith. i mean, if you've ever paid any attention to this blog you'd probably have figured that out by now.

anyway, this weekend will also be a stickball retreat. if everything works out, me and kristy may be going down south to Broken Bow for the Jim Thorpe games. it looks to be an exciting time i hope. i'm just glad there will be people i know there. oh, and we will also be hitting up a powwow in Ada, so good times!!!

Baked Potato, Sweet Tea...

me and kristy are washing clothes. no, not the most amazing thing ever, but something to be done. this has been a good weekend and i just wanted to say that. i mean, how often do those happen??? me, kristy and her little sister when up to Stillwater to play stickball. that native american traditional sport has become something i've become enamored with. i love it!!! and being me, i love to love. i need love in my life. love of all things...

oh, and one last thing like all the last things i mention. kristy has gotten me into the show, Parks and Recreation. where have i been all this time??? that show is fantastic!!! its almost like The Office, but in its own self-contained world. pretty refreshing to find that little gem.

It Stinks, Thumbs Down...

Enter The Void sucked. cool special effects, but not so great a story. i even felt a little sick after watching it. that mostly came from the awful sex scenes.

Irreversible was an independent movie that thrived on its own personal self. Enter The Void felt like a re-hash of an idea already used by the same director. just this time it looked more cool and neon-like...

i hope The Hunger Games more than makes up for it.

Take A Trip Trip...

uh, wow. it feels like forever since i've written on here. hmm...at the moment i'm finally getting around to watching this movie called Enter The Void. it's by Gasper Noe. the guy who made Irreversible. (that one is hard to watch...)

anyway, me and kristy are going out of town this weekend to dallas. it'll be good to escape okc again. things are tiring here...

yep, yep, yep...

Thunder Up Ya Punx...

its close to midnight here. me and kristy just got back from playing basketball at the church. it's becoming a new thing for me and i'm starting to really love it. i actually made a few points!!! ha ha

speaking of basketball, we're both going to see the Oklahoma THUNDAAA play tuesday!!! we haven't been to a game since the playoffs last year. i'm quickly changing my lifestyle and becoming someone who appreciates life more often. for so long i've been a shut-in; one who stays away from others and wishes to not be involved. anyway time has moved on, seasons have changed and i'm much older. so old that i can feel it in my legs and feet, back and sides, head and shoulders. blah blah blah...

oh, and we're watching The Office right now, me and kristy. its good to share something i love with someone i love.

i'm full of total CHEESE!!! :^P

Warrior Pride, Frito Pie...

this is a special weekend here in oklahoma. the Anadarko Warriors are playing in the high school state championships. tomorrow is the big house. the state fairgrounds. i'm excited of course. there's something about seeing natives reach glory. sports is perhaps one of the best since its for the love of the game, and also because its pure.

oh, and i think sushi is on the menu as well, so hooray for raw fish and rice!!!

aww, and one more thing. i'm going to start writing for scene point blank now. i've been given the opportunity to show my writing in a new location and i'm stoked!!!

Stop Whispering, Start Shouting...

me and kristy are seeing radiohead tomorrow in dallas. the excitement is brewing. this will be my second time witnessing them live. first was back in the summer of 2008. i didn't have the best occasions, but for brief moments things became good. catching radiohead in person was one of those blips in my life that stands out. i believe my chances are better this jog because i'll be with someone very special to me and we'll both get to share the experience. God is good.

B'dubs Is Da Best...

i scraped my left leg and knee last night playing basketball. it was fun though, so bloody body parts aside, the event was worth the pain. i'm currently eating lunch with my dad at b'dubs, or buffalo wild wings. i think i'll get a cookie after I bust face on these here wings.

Seashell By A Lakeshore...

lake draper has seen better days...

Indian Hills Road, 2008-2012...

I took a drive to that sacred place where I'm still stuck. That time was special, never to be forgotten by me. The can we drank out of is still there. It's place hopefully permanent. I scanned the horizon, remembering the animals running through the night while the sky was black like black. I sat under a small tree, its shade penetrating my emotions. The wind blowing through my short hair. I spilled my seed on dry, rough ground. The grass was green and soft. Alone and in the comfort of love, I shared a moment like no other. I came back, searching for that place and it still stands. Life has evolved to unfathomed levels, but the land still stands. I'm alone at the present time, deeply thinking, pondering. What is it that God has led me through??? Am I really out of the fire of New Mexico??? Did my soul splinter there; forever to be placed in one spot??? I don't know these answers that I still search for. My life has tumbled to expectations I never knew would happen. Tradition and life, one after the other. I pray for forgiveness and insight. I pray for patience and understanding. I pray to live in peace and move on. God willing...

You Have Five Minutes...

i just watched the movie Drive. it came out sometime last year and was a sleeper hit. i'll go ahead and say right off, that this was perhaps Ryan Gosling's best performance besides his role in Half Nelson, which was heartbreaking. i did some quick studying and have now come to find out the film is a sort of a noir piece. than makes sense since its a rather slow build type of film. very intense and worth all the time it took to reach its climax. its the kind of movie i enjoy more than others. you know, those long, zombie pace types that climb to some sort of conclusion, or nothing at all??? yeah, those kinds. Terrance Malick is king of that choice when it comes to film making. i'm always inspired by good art, and Drive is a film worth your time...

Green Chili And Chocolate...

wait wait wait...did i just come back from a vacation still intact??? hmm, i guess so...

taos new mexico has always been a nice place to visit. my favorite place to visit in that state. the ski trip i just had was great. good times with family and travel cohorts. the food was good too. green chili is awesome indeed. what better time than now to celebrate life by making good memories??? i say, "right here, right now!!!" i'm blessed to have had this opportunity in those wonderful mountains. the air was fresh and chilly and the snow pure and clean. i wish it lasted longer. too much of a good thing i guess..

Turn To The Right...

a ski trip is happening this weekend. me and kristy will be hitting the slopes of new mexico. taos new mexico to be exact. it looks to be a fun time, but i can't shake the feeling of nervousness. i haven't been back to NM since college graduation. i sort of wrote that place off. regardless, i'm glad kristy will be there to have my back in case things get weird. not that i'm expecting it to...

Nothing Much To Say...

its cold out today. oklahoma weather is sneaky...

tonight is the church valentine banquet. i'm in charge of making sure the youth kids are helping with the meals and showmanship. it looks to be a great time i hope.

aww, and it seems that my dad just bought a new truck. hmm...i'm not shocked. this just means that he can't say one word to me about anything that i pay for, or do. blah blah blah

Having A Chronicle Time...

hmm...

i think i've started other posts with, "hmm..." but regardless, hmm...

i might have just seen one of the best, coolest, and bravest movies of the year. it's called Chronicle. yeah, that movie. i'm a bit dumbfounded at the moment. where on earth did this movie come from??? i think i recall maybe seeing a trailer, but its a fleeting memory. anyway, i'll just skip past all the nonsensical rubbish and say, GO SEE THIS FREEKIN' MOVIE NOW!!! YES ALL CCCCCAAAAAPPPPPPSSSSSS!!!

seriously, i'm still in awe of it. there is no point in making a live action version of Akira because this movie did it justice without even having too. if the studios tried to go ahead and make Akira, they'd only be putting themselves in the gutter. Chronicle was excellent and this kid with full on nerd rage is giving it a perfect score, regardless of any nit picking from whoever. just go see it when you get the chance and don't be upset if it isn't your bag. you might hate it. but then you might love it as well...

seeing that movie topped off a great weekend for me. one of the better ones i've had in ages. i hung out at my best friends house friday night and then spent saturday down in ardmore playing stickball. i'm on a stickball team!!! a team!!! i haven't been on a team for anything outside of some crappy online multiplayer game. i feel great and a part of something important. life is good. you aren't gettin' any complaints outta me today by golly!!!

dig it yo!!!

Stickball Like A Boss...

it's a weekend of potential fun, or complete boredom. it'll swing either way. regardless, i'm optimistic about the fun. tomorrow i might be playing stickball if the weather allows it, and sunday is the superbowl. it's times like these that make me happy and worry free. thank you Jesus.

My Top Ten Albums...

i'm 27. i have thought of this list several times. actually too many times. i don't know what i will think once i'm 47, or even if i'll be alive by then. there is a lot of thought that i had to make to go into this list. it wasn't some fluke, or fly-by action. i've used this blog as a means to express personal data, or be "naked" in how i portray myself. some things can be and should be left unsaid. this is the internet of course...

i'm trying my best to not be a jaded fool here. a bitter "old man" i guess. music to me is something more than what's presented on the outside. it has to move me. flow through me. i consider it to be one of the last free things humans can do without expertise or worry because it's an expression of one's self. i don't make music and the thought of me trying doesn't seem to work for me. i don't like to criticize, but there have come some times when i have stood on the soap box and stated my claims. these days i try to just write about what's happening and what i think others would like to hear. even though a lot of music isn't good, there's still the notion that somewhere out there in this vast universe, the creative process is rolling, and unbeknownst to all, the next amazing thing will spring forth.

in my short time i've heard and seen many things. what i'm about to list is what has stayed with me through the long run. from all the things that's come across my path, these albums are what continue to stay. take that for what you will. enjoy the list of all lists...

1. U2 - The Joshua Tree
this is my favorite album of all time. there has never been an album that has taken its place. it's my entire life all collected in one sweet place. when i listen to it, i think about my childhood and the good memories from it. the mountains of new mexico. the long drives through oklahoma. the cold air i breathe. black and white pictures. the 80's...

2. The Smashing Pumpkins - Mellon Collie and The Infinite Sadness
this was my first band i discovered on my own and took the time out to acknowledge and listen to. they were my first concert. i got this album on double cassette and i played it to death. "1979" is my favorite song of all time. this is my album of the 90's. it's what i use to think back on how i acted and related to things. i was young and had no idea about anything other than this music is special and it means something to me. i was hooked after that and became a music nerd.

3. Deftones - White Pony
high school sucked. it probably sucked for everyone, no matter how much they say it didn't. this is that one album that made those days seem at least livable. time moved slow in school back then, and so did this music, but in its own unique way. songs like "Digital Bath" and "Change (In The House of Flies)" flowed with my time spent there and it all glazed over like a warm washing. no class or somewhat lecture could distract me from learning every word and note from that album. it was inspiring and led me away from a lot of things that i thought were cool and important. it's been like that to this day.

4. Radiohead - Ok Computer
this album freaked me out on first listen. it took some time to grasp, but the end result was worth the energy and mind boggling complexity i put into liking it. i still continue to find new things each time i listen to it. it really did portray the insecurity and fear of the future through technology. its more poignant today than ever before. from the first time i heard it, i never thought i'd be typing this on a phone. typing my thoughts on a blog...

5. Greenday - Dookie
my pre-youth time being a spoiled brat and spending money given to me to buy music for myself. i thank Beavis and Butthead for gettin me into this band. this is my favorite punk album. its raw, yet refined in pure pop goodness. it was another gateway album for me. it has that time locked safe that holds my childhood and innocence i guess...

6. My Bloody Valentine - Loveless
an album of sound. just pure sound. its wonderfully made. nothing comes close to it. shoegaze is an interesting thing if it's done right. it's a real work of "art". art as in the creative process to make a mark on life through God given talent. there was a massive amount of talent shown here. Kevin Shields heard something in his head here, or perhaps he didn't. it was probably organic, which i like the idea of.

7. Radiohead - The Bends
a more soothing album than Ok Computer, but nonetheless complex and downright astonishing in its own way. it holds that special place for many people as their last journey with Radiohead. i can understand that and its perfectly fine. i guess i continued on with the band because they had more to give. but here is a an album that can stand tall and perhaps take the spot as their best album, but that's always going to be for people's debate.

8. Bob Dylan - Blood on The Tracks
an album full of pain and regret, but beautifully made. a "perfect" album. one that i recall Bob as being excited over enough to show all his friends immediately. "Simple Twist of Fate", "Idiot Wind", and "Shelter from the Storm" stand out as tracks that helped me through tough times. the tough times of a breakup and depression. it was made before my time, but totally relates right now.

9. At the Drive-In - Relationship of Command
this album has already been written by me in a much more detailed post from a long time ago, but i'll go back to it again. it took me away from mainstream pap and brought me into the underground world of music. it opened the door to indie, punk, hip-hop, electronic, and whatever else. i still recall the first time i watched the music video for "One Armed Scissor". the band looked different, played different, and sounded different. it struck me quick and left an impression. at this time, the band is going to reunite and play at this year's Coachella. a moment i've always wanted seems to be in place for me. i can't wait to go back to california one more time.

10. Broken Social Scene - You Forgot It in People
taking tenth place is an album that i carefully thought of. it was hard to make this choice, but after all the time i've spent through my collection, it has rightfully taken its place here. its charming and subtle, rockin' and rollin'. i love it.


i couldn't make this list without mentioning some that almost made it. these are just as important to me, but only slightly fell below my choices. sorry to those who were a runner-up. i always was...

The Smashing Pumpkins - Siamese Dream
The Chemical Brothers - Dig Your Own Hole
Third Eye Blind - Self Titled
Sonic Youth - Daydream Nation
Joy Division - Closer
Nick Drake - Pink Moon
Minor Threat - Discography
Bruce Springsteen - Born In the USA
Led Zeppelin - Houses of the Holy
American Football - Self Titled
Converge - Jane Doe
Rage Against The Machine - Evil Empire
Explosions in the Sky - The Earth Is Not a Cold Dead Place
Aphex Twin - Selected Ambient Works 85-92
U2 - Achtung Baby


and i guess that's it for now. like i said, i'm only 27, soooooooo what else is left???

Sushi Nhinja Fuyn Tyme...

me and kristy are having an evening together and its nice. there's this show called, Wife Swap, and its something of which i can't understand. i can't understand these people and their families. who'd want to be filmed like that anyway??? all up in your morning glory??? i really have nothing else to say. whatever type of observation i could make doesn't matter, nor is it profound or important. its all been said and done anyway...

what has been cool lately though, is my newfound love for the old school manga, Battle Angel Alita. it's really deep and highly detailed. the writing is unique and engaging, which is needed more these days. it's inspiring to read such creative work and in turn, i hope i can do the same with my own writing. chow...

Duck And Cover Ya'll!!!

i just played paintball with my church youth group. it's fun since i'm a sunday school teacher. seeing my students get along and enjoy themselves is inspiring. too bad i'm freekin' sore. i really am an old man now...

Questions Left Unsaid...

time spent on living life to fullest. never wanting to give up, despite the horrible things that happen. always trying to be at peace and loving of others. sometimes my life is bothersome, hard to understand. i guess its the frequent issues that cloud my path. music is there, along with games, books, and movies. but what of it??? that stuff is just stuff and will never get past a tornado. i'm hungry, but i hate eating on occasions. my shoulders hurt, so why do i do pushups??? why do i think??? why do i write??? why do i breathe when i have the choice not to??? how come i end up staring at the ceilings of the places i've been??? how come i see faces on the walls and crevices of the places i've been??? not much else to do when your depressed. i haven't been depressed in a while. maybe that's a good thing. i'm not used to it though. it feels threatening, cheap and quick to leave. i like diet coke now...

OMG X2!!!

I GOT MY TICKETS TO COACHELLA!!! SEE YOU ALL THERE!!!

OMG!!!

Coachella 2012 is here and the lineup is AMAZING!!! i'm just going to list all the artists playing right here. i can't seem to control my excitement...

the lineup is huge, but here are the ones I’d like to see and make the trip worth my hard earned money:

the black keys
pulp
refused
arctic monkeys
mazzy star
explosions in the sky
M83
Cat power
Madness
Jimmy cliff
GIRLS
The rapture
The horrors
Frank ocean
James
Datsik
Yuck
Neon indian
The black angels
Wu lyf
Atari teenage riot
Band of skulls
Wolf gang
EMA
Kendrick lamar
The dear hunter
Radiohead
Bon iver
The shins
David guetta
Noel Gallagher
Kaskade
Mike snow
Jeff magnum
Sebastian
Andrew bird
Feist
fIREHOSE
Godspeed you! Black emperor
St. Vincent
Sub focus
SBTRKT
Flying lotus
Manchester orchestra
Kasabian
AWOLNATION
Squeeze
A$ap rocky
The buzzcocks
Kaiser chiefs
Destroyer
tUnE-yArDs
grace potter and the nocturnals
Black Lips
The big pink
Childish Gambino
The vaccines
Zeds dead
We were promised jetpacks
Borgore
Mt eden
Dr. Dre
At the drive-in
Justice
Florence and the machine
La roux
Beirut
The weeknd
Girl talk
The hives
Dj shadow
Nero
Wild flag
Modeselektor
Porter robinson
Santigold
Flux pavilion and doctor p
araabMUZIK
real estate
zed
le bucherettes
greg ginn
NOISIA
The gaslamp killer
Thundercat
Metronomy
Wild beasts

yeah, so I’m excited. VERY excited. i don’t know how to contain all this excitement other than to start acting crazy and wanting to holla out loud. dig it suckas!!! see ya at Coachella 2012!!!

Baby Sitter, House Keeper...

i'm doing a special job this week for my best friend. its an exciting occasion, taking on a job that's not of the norm. to pass the time i'm watching good ol'e Arrested Development. this show never gets old.

in the meantime, i'm close to beating Shadow of the Collosus. too add to that, there are some blurays i gotta watch. Whithnail & I, Scott Pilgrim, Inception, Akira, Saving Private Ryan, The Thin Red Line, and Woodstock. good times...

2012 Won't Hurt Me...

it's really 2012. i seem to have made it through another tough year. good thing i'm still living on my own. right now i'm in mid-west city, waiting for some friends to eat Korean food with. i think i'll grab some kimchi while i'm here. :p