Holiday In Apachia...

my memorial weekend vacation came to a close yesterday, as kristy and i pulled into my apartment complex. i was very tired, yet full of various memories and thoughts. some aspects that stood out are the mountains, the weather, the food, the people, the colors, the time, and my rest. as we drove back home, my mind raced to find answers to some of life's current obligations. the stress was lifted, then put back on, lifted and put on again. tick-tock, tick-tock.

at least passing through el paso was nice. lookin' over the distance and seeing mexico came as an overwhelming sight. i was immediately reminded of two things. first was an old local band called, At The Drive-in, and their song, "invalid litter department", an oath to the boarder and all the missing women who lay dead in the desert. and second was a friend of mine whom i was once close to, and now lives there. the thought of that city and its notorious reputation made me scared for her. i hope she is safe and sound...

what am i to do now??? time was spent being happy, so can that happen again??? patience is a good trait to have.

Pineapple, Orange, Limeaid...

i sit in a smoked out room, waiting for my flight. the ceiling tiles look like they've been run through a swamp. the people here are quiet, patiently smoking in this designated space. interesting how they all stare off, flinging their ashes into the complimentary trays. the smoke smells good this time. i usually hate it.

this is my trip to phoenix, arizona. i'm visiting my girlfriends family, on her apache side. this looks to be interesting. just to get out of oklahoma is nice. these past few weeks have been stressful. broken cars and broken feet. tornadoes and heat. to get away is a blessing. i'm really excited to be here and doing something on my own again.

bye bye oklahoma. i'll see you when i get back. please be nice and cool...

Twisty, Dusty, Casino, Tornadoes...

yesterday oklahoma was hit by an onslaught of tornadoes from every direction. the damage is still being calculated, and things seem pretty down. me and my family survived by the grace of god. still, for others, the tornadoes did a lot worse. witnessing the awesome, yet fierce power of our creator is a humbling, and thought provoking experience. we can never be too comfortable, seeing as how our world can, literally, be thrown against the wind like a piece of paper. i've survived through many of natures angry wraths, but have never forgotten any of them. when a storm cloud brews, only to develop a massive "finger of god" that brushes over landscapes like a child playing with paint, you begin to notice, very clearly, just how small and insignificant you are. of course no one is really as forgetful as that, but it does make you reassess your life when you can easily stare death in its face while driving on I-35 southbound...

Motor Cycle Drive-by...

howdy fine folks. checkin' in from the Diamond Ballroom, about to see Third Eye Blind and get all teary eyed. heh heh, naw, but, well who knows. this band got me through some tough times. i spent many private moments listening to their selftitled debut. i don't want to list all the details, but let's just say the subject matter hit close to home. tales of heartbreak and doubt, selfishness and stupidity, winning and failing.

i'm pressed against a stone wall, typing away on this phone of mine. ironic how i make this my outlet to the outside, despite the mammoth debts owed to payments and responsibility. i like to take the time to reflect, seeing things from different angles. my perspective on living and relationships notwithstanding. the ambience is one of talk, people with ideas and feelings as well. maybe they are connected to Third Eye Blind just like me??? those memories from past lives. i gotta think that that's the case, seeing as how they are all close to my own age.

how's it goin' to be, when you don't know me anymore??? i sang that song at high volume, hoping that she would hear me far away. the delusions of grander got the best of me. i couldn't take the heavy feelings deep within. i cried and smoked some more, hoping that i would collapse inside and my body explode like a bomb. i'd take myself to some far off place, wishing i could stay there and forget. but no, you never forget. the pain still lingers and i'm sitting here wondering why it won't stop. gothic much???

Mother Help My Bone...

ok, i often post events and this needs to be a quick one. i broke my left foot, or something of that sort. the doctor said its an evulsion (i am probably spelling that wrong...) on the fifth bone. i'll just say its my pinky toe. it looked a lot worse that it felt, but there was pain. what happened was me falling like a dork. i was throwing around a softball with my girlfriend and when it came to be my turn to catch it, i fell like a statue. i always trip over myself, and have been that way since i was a kid. ugh...

my mom took me to ada. that trip was much longer than i'm used to, but i had no choice. she really helped me in a tight situation since i've busted my foot............ and also broke my car.

i didn't break it on purpose though. it was some weird accident out of my control. i'm the LAST person to ask about cars, so i currently feel like i'm in the twilight zone. as i've said twice today, "if it isn't one thing, its another..."

don't feel sorry for me and don't think i'm whining. i'm just speaking my mind and trying to unleash this overflow of emotional mail. well, my phone is about to die, so i'll chat later. peace be with you...

Defense, Defense, Defense...

almost halftime. the thunder are keeping ahead of the grizzly's by a few points. i'm sitting in my mom's rocking chair, writing this post. my mom and girlfriend are making me feel guilty if i don't attend church this sunday. i do go to church, but this time its at my girlfriends. we're leaving dallas way early sunday to get back in time. i'll just be tired and probably stressed out, but i'm gonna do it for kristy. she's very special and caring, so she deserves kindness and good things.

thunder are now up by eleven. i'm exhausted by todays work. my best friend is currently at a concert. i thinks its avenged sevenfold. i'm not really a fan, but i do have one, or maybe two of their old albums. ok, this post is taking too long to finish. i'm just burnin' fumes. halftime now, thunder ahead by ten. i'm off track and conversing while writing. i guess its just nice to write. i feel like a mass of space, and the conversation i'm having with kristy is getting very weird and strange...

right, well i'm out of ideas. oh, i do have something to mention quickly. everyone of you should check out the criterion collection. these are movies of very high caliber and class. their website contains the vast assortment, listing detailed facts for each film, as well as release dates for upcoming films. yeah, it totally sounds like i'm hyping the company as if i were an employee, but let me tell ya, these are terrific films. Art, is actually the right word to best describe these flicks. some of my most cherished are released through criterion like, Rushmore, Seven Samurai, Days of Heaven, Brazil, Crumb, and The Thin Red Line.

ok, time for me to go. the thunder game is getting crazy and the technicals are flying. the games gonna end somehow, some way.

ugh, i'm tired...

Thundaaa And Lightening...

the california chicken melt at city bites is an awesome sandwich. the overall taste is exquisite, with a roasty bite and salty lick. grabbing myself a bag of cheddar sun chips and some sweet, black tea, i'm ready to go!!! oh, how nice the simple things are. i wish life could be more like this. of course, that's not the overall plan of things. nope, life can't be this easy and nice, because if it was, what would we learn??? how would we develope backbone??? i'm not a theorist, but i can think things with a hopeful, genuine sense of some sort of clarity. that's why god gave me a brain for.

i recently purchased this little device called a "headphonie." its a little critter-like person that's adorable and portable. you connect your musical device through a chord and the little guy plays your tunes. he's a miniature speaker!!! cuteness aside, this wonderful gadget packs a punch and is durable. you won't believe the sound quality it expells!!! its just one of the many things that describe the nerdyness of me. i wanna get one for my girlfriend!!!

well, its time to get back to my sandwich. i'm going to dallas again this weekend, so i'll try to keep in touch. thanks for being patient while i wait for a new computer during these, "dark ages." oh, GO THUNDAAA!!!

Quarantine The Past...

the choctaw free wifi is awesome to use here in ada. yep, i'm once again at the indian hospital, getting my prescriptions and doing bloodwork. i'm not a fan of hospitals, but the drive makes it worth it. that, and i get to take off work for a lil' bit.

its may now, and that means freshness. well, that's probably only a bit right. it also means summer, heat, kids, pools, fireworks, ice cream trucks, powwows, movies, sports, air conditioning, driving, working, loving, and sleeping. its pretty much a mixed bag. i try to take it all in stride...