A Wolf At The Door...

Nothing Much To Say...

2012-02-11T12:15:00.000-08:00

its cold out today. oklahoma weather is sneaky...

tonight is the church valentine banquet. i'm in charge of making sure the youth kids are helping with the meals and showmanship. it looks to be a great time i hope.

aww, and it seems that my dad just bought a new truck. hmm...i'm not shocked. this just means that he can't say one word to me about anything that i pay for, or do. blah blah blah

Having A Chronicle Time...

2012-02-05T21:57:00.000-08:00

hmm...

i think i've started other posts with, "hmm..." but regardless, hmm...

i might have just seen one of the best, coolest, and bravest movies of the year. it's called Chronicle. yeah, that movie. i'm a bit dumbfounded at the moment. where on earth did this movie come from??? i think i recall maybe seeing a trailer, but its a fleeting memory. anyway, i'll just skip past all the nonsensical rubbish and say, GO SEE THIS FREEKIN' MOVIE NOW!!! YES ALL CCCCCAAAAAPPPPPPSSSSSS!!!

seriously, i'm still in awe of it. there is no point in making a live action version of Akira because this movie did it justice without even having too. if the studios tried to go ahead and make Akira, they'd only be putting themselves in the gutter. Chronicle was excellent and this kid with full on nerd rage is giving it a perfect score, regardless of any nit picking from whoever. just go see it when you get the chance and don't be upset if it isn't your bag. you might hate it. but then you might love it as well...

seeing that movie topped off a great weekend for me. one of the better ones i've had in ages. i hung out at my best friends house friday night and then spent saturday down in ardmore playing stickball. i'm on a stickball team!!! a team!!! i haven't been on a team for anything outside of some crappy online multiplayer game. i feel great and a part of something important. life is good. you aren't gettin' any complaints outta me today by golly!!!

dig it yo!!!

Stickball Like A Boss...

2012-02-03T09:45:00.000-08:00

it's a weekend of potential fun, or complete boredom. it'll swing either way. regardless, i'm optimistic about the fun. tomorrow i might be playing stickball if the weather allows it, and sunday is the superbowl. it's times like these that make me happy and worry free. thank you Jesus.

My Top Ten Albums...

2012-01-27T22:35:00.000-08:00

i'm 27. i have thought of this list several times. actually too many times. i don't know what i will think once i'm 47, or even if i'll be alive by then. there is a lot of thought that i had to make to go into this list. it wasn't some fluke, or fly-by action. i've used this blog as a means to express personal data, or be "naked" in how i portray myself. some things can be and should be left unsaid. this is the internet of course...

i'm trying my best to not be a jaded fool here. a bitter "old man" i guess. music to me is something more than what's presented on the outside. it has to move me. flow through me. i consider it to be one of the last free things humans can do without expertise or worry because it's an expression of one's self. i don't make music and the thought of me trying doesn't seem to work for me. i don't like to criticize, but there have come some times when i have stood on the soap box and stated my claims. these days i try to just write about what's happening and what i think others would like to hear. even though a lot of music isn't good, there's still the notion that somewhere out there in this vast universe, the creative process is rolling, and unbeknownst to all, the next amazing thing will spring forth.

in my short time i've heard and seen many things. what i'm about to list is what has stayed with me through the long run. from all the things that's come across my path, these albums are what continue to stay. take that for what you will. enjoy the list of all lists...

1. U2 - The Joshua Tree
this is my favorite album of all time. there has never been an album that has taken its place. it's my entire life all collected in one sweet place. when i listen to it, i think about my childhood and the good memories from it. the mountains of new mexico. the long drives through oklahoma. the cold air i breathe. black and white pictures. the 80's...

2. The Smashing Pumpkins - Mellon Collie and The Infinite Sadness
this was my first band i discovered on my own and took the time out to acknowledge and listen to. they were my first concert. i got this album on double cassette and i played it to death. "1979" is my favorite song of all time. this is my album of the 90's. it's what i use to think back on how i acted and related to things. i was young and had no idea about anything other than this music is special and it means something to me. i was hooked after that and became a music nerd.

3. Deftones - White Pony
high school sucked. it probably sucked for everyone, no matter how much they say it didn't. this is that one album that made those days seem at least livable. time moved slow in school back then, and so did this music, but in its own unique way. songs like "Digital Bath" and "Change (In The House of Flies)" flowed with my time spent there and it all glazed over like a warm washing. no class or somewhat lecture could distract me from learning every word and note from that album. it was inspiring and led me away from a lot of things that i thought were cool and important. it's been like that to this day.

4. Radiohead - Ok Computer
this album freaked me out on first listen. it took some time to grasp, but the end result was worth the energy and mind boggling complexity i put into liking it. i still continue to find new things each time i listen to it. it really did portray the insecurity and fear of the future through technology. its more poignant today than ever before. from the first time i heard it, i never thought i'd be typing this on a phone. typing my thoughts on a blog...

5. Greenday - Dookie
my pre-youth time being a spoiled brat and spending money given to me to buy music for myself. i thank Beavis and Butthead for gettin me into this band. this is my favorite punk album. its raw, yet refined in pure pop goodness. it was another gateway album for me. it has that time locked safe that holds my childhood and innocence i guess...

6. My Bloody Valentine - Loveless
an album of sound. just pure sound. its wonderfully made. nothing comes close to it. shoegaze is an interesting thing if it's done right. it's a real work of "art". art as in the creative process to make a mark on life through God given talent. there was a massive amount of talent shown here. Kevin Shields heard something in his head here, or perhaps he didn't. it was probably organic, which i like the idea of.

7. Radiohead - The Bends
a more soothing album than Ok Computer, but nonetheless complex and downright astonishing in its own way. it holds that special place for many people as their last journey with Radiohead. i can understand that and its perfectly fine. i guess i continued on with the band because they had more to give. but here is a an album that can stand tall and perhaps take the spot as their best album, but that's always going to be for people's debate.

8. Bob Dylan - Blood on The Tracks
an album full of pain and regret, but beautifully made. a "perfect" album. one that i recall Bob as being excited over enough to show all his friends immediately. "Simple Twist of Fate", "Idiot Wind", and "Shelter from the Storm" stand out as tracks that helped me through tough times. the tough times of a breakup and depression. it was made before my time, but totally relates right now.

9. At the Drive-In - Relationship of Command
this album has already been written by me in a much more detailed post from a long time ago, but i'll go back to it again. it took me away from mainstream pap and brought me into the underground world of music. it opened the door to indie, punk, hip-hop, electronic, and whatever else. i still recall the first time i watched the music video for "One Armed Scissor". the band looked different, played different, and sounded different. it struck me quick and left an impression. at this time, the band is going to reunite and play at this year's Coachella. a moment i've always wanted seems to be in place for me. i can't wait to go back to california one more time.

10. Broken Social Scene - You Forgot It in People
taking tenth place is an album that i carefully thought of. it was hard to make this choice, but after all the time i've spent through my collection, it has rightfully taken its place here. its charming and subtle, rockin' and rollin'. i love it.

i couldn't make this list without mentioning some that almost made it. these are just as important to me, but only slightly fell below my choices. sorry to those who were a runner-up. i always was...

The Smashing Pumpkins - Siamese Dream
The Chemical Brothers - Dig Your Own Hole
Third Eye Blind - Self Titled
Sonic Youth - Daydream Nation
Joy Division - Closer
Nick Drake - Pink Moon
Minor Threat - Discography
Bruce Springsteen - Born In the USA
Led Zeppelin - Houses of the Holy
American Football - Self Titled
Converge - Jane Doe
Rage Against The Machine - Evil Empire
Explosions in the Sky - The Earth Is Not a Cold Dead Place
Aphex Twin - Selected Ambient Works 85-92
U2 - Achtung Baby

and i guess that's it for now. like i said, i'm only 27, soooooooo what else is left???

Sushi Nhinja Fuyn Tyme...

2012-01-25T18:46:00.000-08:00

me and kristy are having an evening together and its nice. there's this show called, Wife Swap, and its something of which i can't understand. i can't understand these people and their families. who'd want to be filmed like that anyway??? all up in your morning glory??? i really have nothing else to say. whatever type of observation i could make doesn't matter, nor is it profound or important. its all been said and done anyway...

what has been cool lately though, is my newfound love for the old school manga, Battle Angel Alita. it's really deep and highly detailed. the writing is unique and engaging, which is needed more these days. it's inspiring to read such creative work and in turn, i hope i can do the same with my own writing. chow...

Duck And Cover Ya'll!!!

2012-01-21T11:15:00.000-08:00

i just played paintball with my church youth group. it's fun since i'm a sunday school teacher. seeing my students get along and enjoy themselves is inspiring. too bad i'm freekin' sore. i really am an old man now...

Questions Left Unsaid...

2012-01-18T12:02:00.000-08:00

time spent on living life to fullest. never wanting to give up, despite the horrible things that happen. always trying to be at peace and loving of others. sometimes my life is bothersome, hard to understand. i guess its the frequent issues that cloud my path. music is there, along with games, books, and movies. but what of it??? that stuff is just stuff and will never get past a tornado. i'm hungry, but i hate eating on occasions. my shoulders hurt, so why do i do pushups??? why do i think??? why do i write??? why do i breathe when i have the choice not to??? how come i end up staring at the ceilings of the places i've been??? how come i see faces on the walls and crevices of the places i've been??? not much else to do when your depressed. i haven't been depressed in a while. maybe that's a good thing. i'm not used to it though. it feels threatening, cheap and quick to leave. i like diet coke now...

OMG X2!!!

2012-01-13T11:58:00.000-08:00

I GOT MY TICKETS TO COACHELLA!!! SEE YOU ALL THERE!!!

OMG!!!

2012-01-10T08:54:00.000-08:00

Coachella 2012 is here and the lineup is AMAZING!!! i'm just going to list all the artists playing right here. i can't seem to control my excitement...

the lineup is huge, but here are the ones I’d like to see and make the trip worth my hard earned money:

the black keys
pulp
refused
arctic monkeys
mazzy star
explosions in the sky
M83
Cat power
Madness
Jimmy cliff
GIRLS
The rapture
The horrors
Frank ocean
James
Datsik
Yuck
Neon indian
The black angels
Wu lyf
Atari teenage riot
Band of skulls
Wolf gang
EMA
Kendrick lamar
The dear hunter
Radiohead
Bon iver
The shins
David guetta
Noel Gallagher
Kaskade
Mike snow
Jeff magnum
Sebastian
Andrew bird
Feist
fIREHOSE
Godspeed you! Black emperor
St. Vincent
Sub focus
SBTRKT
Flying lotus
Manchester orchestra
Kasabian
AWOLNATION
Squeeze
A$ap rocky
The buzzcocks
Kaiser chiefs
Destroyer
tUnE-yArDs
grace potter and the nocturnals
Black Lips
The big pink
Childish Gambino
The vaccines
Zeds dead
We were promised jetpacks
Borgore
Mt eden
Dr. Dre
At the drive-in
Justice
Florence and the machine
La roux
Beirut
The weeknd
Girl talk
The hives
Dj shadow
Nero
Wild flag
Modeselektor
Porter robinson
Santigold
Flux pavilion and doctor p
araabMUZIK
real estate
zed
le bucherettes
greg ginn
NOISIA
The gaslamp killer
Thundercat
Metronomy
Wild beasts

yeah, so I’m excited. VERY excited. i don’t know how to contain all this excitement other than to start acting crazy and wanting to holla out loud. dig it suckas!!! see ya at Coachella 2012!!!

Baby Sitter, House Keeper...

2012-01-08T16:02:00.000-08:00

i'm doing a special job this week for my best friend. its an exciting occasion, taking on a job that's not of the norm. to pass the time i'm watching good ol'e Arrested Development. this show never gets old.

in the meantime, i'm close to beating Shadow of the Collosus. too add to that, there are some blurays i gotta watch. Whithnail & I, Scott Pilgrim, Inception, Akira, Saving Private Ryan, The Thin Red Line, and Woodstock. good times...

2012 Won't Hurt Me...

2012-01-02T13:57:00.000-08:00

it's really 2012. i seem to have made it through another tough year. good thing i'm still living on my own. right now i'm in mid-west city, waiting for some friends to eat Korean food with. i think i'll grab some kimchi while i'm here. :p

Eggnog And Peptobismal...

2011-12-26T02:14:00.000-08:00

remember my last post concerning my family Christmas??? how i always get nervous and anxious??? this year was exactly that. it got so bad i ended up getting sick and lost a good dinner. disfunctional can't even begin to describe the tension between us all. why oh why can't things be happy and peaceful??? at least the children seemed to enjoy themselves. my two little cousins we're all smiles when i visited on Christmas day. my sweet brother was happy too. seeing all these children be happy was a nice feeling and they all deserve that. i wish it was like that for them everday, but it isn't. there are things keeping them from enjoyment and it hurts me too see it. to see that for any child is tough. it reminds me of my childhood and brings back bad memories...

still, Christmas isn't about certain things, but about one thing, and that one thing is God. i never much cared about the real meaning of Christmas until these past few years as a more mature adult. (as mature as i can be i suppose...) i take my time and observe everything and everyone. i'm left with the feeling of just me and the Lord. i have to pray much harder these days because its becoming worse and worse. Christmas is supposed to be the most peaceful time, and peace doesn't seem to come without war. but then again, nothing is past God's power, so that's why i keep praying.

Little Classic Rock Enthusiast...

2011-12-20T21:01:00.000-08:00

i just watched the first official trailer for The Hobbit. i'm freakin' stoked. i'll have to wait an entire year for it to come out, but that's fine. every little bit of juicy details to get excited about just eases my pain. ha ha. no, really though, i'm just passionate about certain things and its nice to have little pieces scattered around to look forward too.

this evening me and kristy took out my two cousins to see Christmas lights. its nice to see them, but it doesn't happen often since they live so far away. they're precious and very funny. i was teased all night and forced to listen to Bob Jovie and the Eagles. those rascals!!!

Christmas is just about five days away. the excitement is here, but my patience is the most important. being around my family is unpredictable and usually stresses me out thinly like ringing a wash cloth. i always have to pray before our gatherings begin...

A To-go Drink Please...

2011-12-17T21:10:00.000-08:00

i'm a survivor. i did another year at my churches Christmas play and i nailed it. well, it wasn't as difficult as last year, so i won't go into detail about how BOSS i think i was. ha ha

i'm home now and very tired. there is a pack of kit-kats sitting next to me, waiting to be demolished. i think i'll end the night on that. :^)

Pomegranate Ice Tea...

2011-12-13T19:26:00.000-08:00

i'm in the church Christmas play once again. this time i play a character known as the "warrior." basically he's the guy who denies Joseph and Mary a stay at his inn, or in this case, a teepee. i don't mind doing it again because its important, but i'm finding the time to do such a thing rather difficult. i guess this is why being an adult has to pay some dues...

right now me and kristy are watchin Pawn Stars. i might have mentioned that show on this blog before. anyway, those pawn guys really do low-ball their customers. lol

Come To My Hood...

2011-12-10T07:18:00.000-08:00

i'm going to finish all the rest of my Christmas shopping today. i'll have to brave the mall this saturday morning. i'm in good spirits though. i've actually been looking forward to this. oh, and i'm getting a haircut again as well. mmm...i sure could use a coffee right now.

how's it going on your end fine folks out there??? i really hope all is well with you. dig it...

Dietrockstarchocolatecokepastatoast...

2011-12-03T13:29:00.000-08:00

you're killin' me smallzzz...

me a kristy are with my grammy decorating for christmas. we're talking about my old friend tony. i wonder how he's doing these days. he'd be about my age, or a little older. i hope he is well and happy with someone close.

OU is playing OSU tonight. its bedlam time. people are gettin' antsy and the weather is wet and chilly. i'm in good spirits and tryin' to persuade grammy to let me vacuum the floor. she just mentioned how her neighbor across the hall fell down the stairs. i've never met him, but the stories are interesting. picture archie bunker, but more blind.

aww, and in cooler news, i got back my tubemate app. mp3's are gonna be scarfed!!!

aight, so i'll see you all laters. i'm hungry and need to get off this phone while in the company of loved ones...

Schuyler Unit Hunger Squad...

2011-11-27T17:40:00.000-08:00

i'd like to thank kristys family for having me over this past holiday. the time i spent there was very nice and relaxing. the food was also awesome. VERY AWESOME!!!

me and kristy spent time shopping on black friday. it went surprisingly well, considering how crazy people are this time of year. ah ha ha ha. this very moment i'm watching Aqua Teen Hunger Force and its just as stupidly funny as its always been. some weird spider thingy that looks like its made from a man's balls just made love to master shakes face for nine years in a sleep chamber. yeah...

well tomorrow is the start of another work week. it won't be too far until christmas and i've already purchased most of my family gifts. time is swell. dig it...

Thank You Very Much...

2011-11-23T22:09:00.000-08:00

please give thanks, for thanks is good, and good is thankfully given...

Dubstepperzzz...

2011-11-22T17:06:00.000-08:00

i’m waiting for my thanksgiving vacation to start soon. after tomorrow’s workday actually!!! the excitements got me pumped for the time off away from the usual business of life. i’ll first begin my journey in dallas, hangin’ out with kristy and her family. later on we’ll probably go shopping on black friday, which i hope i can handle. (i hate crowds and waiting in lines…) after about two days down there, it’s back up to oklahoma for a powwow in durant. it’s the choctaw thanksgiving weekend festival thingy. i’ve been doing my runnin’ for about two/three months now and i’m a bit nervous to dance, but curious to see if i’ll do much better than the last time. (i couldn’t last one song…)

ever read RAGE comics??? look them up sometime. they’re pretty amusing for some stupid internet meme. uh, i don’t really have much else to say. it’s complicated writing this down using microsoft word and carefully making sure that you never capitalize any words, nor work on adding the letter “G” to the ends of statements like, winnin’, writin’, grinin’, bathin’, fallin’, tweekin’, breakin’, fartin’, free-basin’, gun totin’, swimmin’, kissin’, lickin’, chicken’, porkin’, peein’, drivin’, towlin’, plowin’, standin’, shavin’, dreamin’, singin’, livin’, and killin’…

what will the future bring me??? who else is there for me to meet? will i eventually meet everyone i’m supposed to in this lifetime???? will i be able to be published??? is there an answer to these irrelevant questions that mean nothing outside of this little blog of mine??? ever watched, or read, The Basketball Diaries??? that stuff was whack. sort of awesome too… you ever seen movies like, Spun, Kids, City of God, Gummo, Akira, Blue Velvet, Come and See, or Twilight??? look them up sometime. those were hard to get through for me. i mean MY GOSH!!!

i listen to dubstep, but have grown tired of all the mess that’s been made of it in recent times. it’s not like i didn’t expect something that grew naturally to not be exposed and bastardized by the masses, but seriously, it hurts. the same goes for emo music and native american sweat lodges. once the media gets hold, you better get through as much of it as you can before John, “everyday shmuck” Doe gets around to “doin it”. god i hate the media and mainstream, but of course will allow myself to dwell within its toothy grasp. i love me some videogames and movies. did you know that there’s supposed to be a teaser trailer for The Hobbit this december??? i’m not sure which film(s) will show it, but much like all those crappy flicks that had Episode I sneak peeks, i’ll probably deface myself and sit patiently until it comes up. i’m just that much of a nerd…

oh, and one more thing to mention. once my income tax comes in, I’m gettin’ a friggin’ new computer ya dorkin’, snorklin’, bitin’, smirkin’ people out there!!! word to yo motherzzz…

Twilight Breaking Bongs...

2011-11-17T19:27:00.000-08:00

kristy wants to go to see the new Twilight movie, but is chillin' with me instead. we're watching the last Harry Potter movie. (its a bit more overdramatically dumb than i remember...) po' thang, she was left behind on a midnight movie gathering. oh well, i'm glad that she's here. no point in seein' a movie like Twilight with millions of zombie fangirls. those kind of people are the reason i don't go to midnight movies anymore...

i can't say much about the movie or books that hasn't already been said all over. for me though, it only took reading about one quarter of the first "novel" to experience dread and insecurity on my part for reading such trash. there's better reading found on the back of a malt-o-meal cereal box than on one page of Twilight. i received a bfa in creative writing and i spend many hours of my time trying to write a profound piece. if someone can write a book like Twilight and make it big, what's stopping me from doing that??? well i'll tell you why...i have more respect for myself and any potential readers i could possibly have. i couldn't live with myself if i wrote something as horrible as those books. those poor poor fans. what will they do once they realise their precious time was wasted on such a blatantly awful excuse for written words???

oh, and my blog is probably full of just about as much terribleness as those books. all i can say is that at least my words don't describe the crazy amount of details like eyes, face, mouth, skin, and smell. once i got around to reading about Edwards physique, i felt sick. oh, and for the record for the record for the record for the record for the record for the record, my eyes are green/hazel, face like a lego man, mouth with full lips, white skin with a hint of shading, and a smell that's not duck butter...

Schuyler Gone To Heaven...

2011-11-15T08:20:00.000-08:00

something special will happen tonight. me and kristy are going to see The Pixies and they will be playing their album, Doolittle, in its entirety. i find this to me a momentous occasion, but also one of deep, personal memories. there is a lot of emotional baggage that this band carries for me. i spent quite a bit of time listening to their music and experiencing them with certain people. it makes me even more humble that I finally get to see them, but also that it’s a sort of turn around. things in life just seem to work out in mysterious ways. i have no clue what to expect tonight, but i just hope that me and kristy will remember it for a good long time and that i will be refreshed and whole. a kind of thing that i’d like to say will, “fill in the gaps in my life”, so to speak.

my plans for Thanksgiving weekend are going good. i think i’m going to Texas with kristy this year and spending time with her family. i’m really looking forward to this because i desperately want a change. i need a change. time to do something for myself. later on saturday i think i’ll head back to oklahoma and stop by the Choctaw powwow in Durant. my dad and stepmom are getting a hotel room and i’ll just hang with them. too bad i won’t be able to go fishing. last time i went down there me and dad went striper bass huntin’ with our old buddy Rick. fishing for striper is one of the best things in the world. the only way to feel at peace sometimes is to spend several hours just fishing. not many things in the world are as relaxing as fishing.

and so i’m off once again. time to start plannin’ on what to get my family for Christmas and time to start plannin’ on the time spent with my video games. i have around 15 that i still need to beat the crap out of, but geez, Battlefield 3 is just so awesome and taking a huge part of my time. oh, and Modern Warfare 3 is pretty boring overall. it really is the same ol’e thing…

Frozen Hot Chocolate...

2011-11-11T21:04:00.000-08:00

its close to 11:11:11. by the time i post this it might be that special moment. kristy reminded me of this time in our lives. does it mean anything??? not really sure...

Brightness And Me...

2011-11-08T18:18:00.000-08:00

i'm with Kristy at the Conservatory. we're about to watch Pianos Become the Teeth and Touche Amore; two of the best hardcore/screamo bands on the current scene. these aren't your typical hardcore bands mind you, but instead two seperate groups full of energy and honesty that doesn't seem be all that common these days. i'm stoked, but not too sure of what Kristy thinks. this might be too HARDCORE for her. lol

hey, one more thing here. after work i went out and got my copy of Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 3. yeah, yeah, you might think i'm a hypocrite or something, but for the record, i never said i wasn't going to get it. so far the single player mode is awesome and better than i expected. i haven't dived into multiplayer, but i'm pretty sure its just like all the other ones in the series.

so with that i must take off. i gotta get my punk mode switched on...

Road Trip Rock Star...

2011-11-05T22:31:00.000-07:00

i'm not making a lie when i say that i FINALLY got a new car!!! it's a 2010 Volkswagen Jetta!!! for some reason i've always wanted one and now i have it. i'm still shocked a bit. it's just the Lords doing. i prayed soooooo much for a new car and now i'm safe and secure with one. i shouldn't have worried as much as i did, but that's just my nature i believe. still, its here and i'm very, VERY grateful. thank you Lord so much.

oh, and my car is named...Shasta. Shasta Deal. :p

Credit Union, Onion Bloomin'...

2011-11-02T22:19:00.000-07:00

i have a gallon jug of fresh, clean water sitting next to me by the couch. it sustains me during the night in case i ever get thirsty. hmm... i guess i have nothing else to add to that. :/

oh, as for a more better thing to mention, i moved to a credit union and now i'm approved for a car loan!!! the loan officer was very nice and took a chance on me. somethin about my age, job, and lack of student loans seemed to impress her a bit. lucky me!!! well, actually it was all God's doing.

now if only i can pick a good car...

Toby's Pullin' Up...

2011-10-27T07:38:00.000-07:00

Paranormal Activity 3 was pretty fun. i enjoyed going to it twice, once with my Mom and another time with kristy. they both were scared, which led to some amusing moments for me. there is nothing like watching a scary movie during Halloween season. i’m fond of those old memories from way back when. the films that have always stood out are, The Blair Witch Project, Dawn of the Dead, Halloween, The Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Night of the Living Dead, and I guess the Paranormal Activity series. ha ha

in other more awesome news, i finally got my copy of BATTLEFIELD 3!!! YYYYYEEEEEEAAAAAAHHHHHH!!! oh man, it’s sooooooooo awesome!!! i’m having such a blast playing it online. Aww, and to be clear, i’m having fun playing the online multiplayer ONLY. the single player is pretty terrible and not really fun at all. it comes off as a bad, third-rate Call of Duty clone in regards to story line, characters, and set pieces. there really isn’t anything to write home about. the single player just sucks. period. bbbbbbuuuuuuuutttttt, as for the multiplayer??? well let’s just say that COD has A LOT to live up to, and I don’t expect them to really do that much overall to their already tried-and-true gameplay experience. probably some new guns, new killstreaks, new fightin’ areas, and newish graphics, but in the long run, i just can’t see COD really gaining the upper hand in the multiplayer field right now. it’s the same ol’e thing, and I doubt they’ll change anything at all that much. when people get a COD game, they expect it to be just like the others, so no, nuh uh, there won’t be any big changes. so my point is, over there, you have time tested and loved, COD, aaaaaannnnnddddd way over there you have Battlefield 3; a newer game with, what i assume, is an entirely new multiplayer game style of which not many outside of the computer or Bad Company series has played before. it’ll take a lot to get folks into this change, but once they do they should see a very dramatic difference, and one that i now call, THE BEST MULTIPLAYER GAME ON THE MARKET. RING a’ DING DING PEOPLE!!!

hmm, i thought i had more to say… ugh, i feel so bad that i haven’t been updating this blog with music like i have done before. please people, just know that i am working hard to get back to that format. times are difficult right now for me and i don’t have the cash flow to get a computer at the moment. car troubles you see??? and also, my life has just been busy more that i thought it would be at this time. having a girlfriend is totally awesome and i wouldn’t give that up for any hobby ever. i’d rather spend time with her than be on here, but just know that i love my blog and i’m going to keep it going for a long as i can. i don’t see anything changing soon, so it’ll still be here and i’ll still be here. :)

dig it…

Paranormal Activity Cheeseburger 49

2011-10-20T15:03:00.000-07:00

this is a weekend i’m dying to have. guilty pleasures of scary movies are in order and it seems that Paranormal Activity 3 is the one to pick. yeah, i need to separate all ties with my integrity and uptight snobbery to see this movie, and i don’t mind it at all. i think my mom will be accompanying me just like the last two times we saw the films. oh, and kristy is a scaredy cat!!!

ah, and i only have six ½ more days until i get my sweaty/cold hands on my copy of BATTLEFIELD 3 YA FINE FOLKS!!! OMG, i’m soooooooo excited to finally play this!!! it’s going to be a shut-in kind of winter for sure. i just hope that kristy won’t mind too much…

enjoy the upcoming weekend. it’s sure to be a fun one me thinks!!!

Frozen Yogurt With Boba...

2011-10-14T21:00:00.000-07:00

tonight me and kristy hung out in Norman, visiting ou campus and getting a free concert in front of the memorial union building. the band, The Pains of Being Pure At Heart, stopped in oklahoma to give people a dose of their shoegaze/lo-fi/dream-pop/indie rock whatever music. we had a great time together and its just awesome to have a close relationship with someone who is interested in what you like. (she seems to be inching more and more in my direction of music tastes...)

tomorrow were going to tulsa for a native film festival. hopefully we'll get to stop by and see my old college roomate jackie. i miss that guy.

sooooo it is with a tired yawn that i now say g'night to you all. take care and sweet dreams!!!

Posturepedic Heavy Head Rest...

2011-10-08T07:45:00.000-07:00

the sooners play the longhorns today. it's know as the red river rivalry. the time leading up to the game is exciting. me and kristy are hitting up two places to watch it.

in other more awesome news, yesterday i got two new music reviews published on punknews.org. if you ever feel like taking a look, go there and spot out the reviews written by eatdogs. that's my world famous user name.

mmm, i got to sleep in this morning. dig it fine folks...

High And Dry...

2011-10-06T07:18:00.000-07:00

last night me and kristy saw the movie 50/50. it stars jason gordon levitt as a young adult with cancer. the subject matter is serious, but the film shows a way on how people deal with a tough situation such as that. it reminded me of the hard time i went through during my last year of college. i was able to connect in a personal way.

i'm still working out everyday, jogging mostly. i think its slowly paying off. there is a slimness that i can sort of see in certain areas. i know i'm crazy in saying that, but i can see something changing ever so slightly. it's pretty exciting and makes me want to work harder to achieve more. oh, and certain clothes seem to fit more better too!!! dig it...

Buffalo Birthday Bun Fun...

2011-10-01T17:49:00.000-07:00

i'm in dallas with kristy about to grease down on a Fuddruckers buffalo burger!!! this is all a part of my birthday weekend and i'm so blessed to have this all happen, but first to go back a lil' bit.

last night was a very awesome time. i was treated to a nice pizza dinner at Hideaway and then bombarded with amazing gifts. grandma got me The Office season 7 and a book, mom got me another book and the Ico/Shadow of the Colossus collection for my PS3, and kristy hooked me up with yet, another book, some clothes and a lovely picture album with her writings expressing our relationship. oh, and grammy got me a double picture set of my little cousins from houston. in all, it was a great time.

we drove down to texas this morning and met up with Kristy's family. after a quick lunch we split up from the folks and stopped at IKEA. i treated myself to some nifty items like lamps, bulbs, hangers, an electrical outlet that has six openings, and a mini sugar shaker for mom. (yeah, i'm nerdy...)

ugh, i'm sooooo full right now. that burger was AMAZING!!! ah, and for the record, i'd just like to say that these dallas highways are awful. too many cars...

aight, i'm gonna go now. see you kitty's later!!!

Battlefield 3 Beta Impressions...

2011-09-28T12:37:00.000-07:00

hello again fine folks in the interwebbings out there. i’m back with another update to this ole’ blog of mine. first, let me say that these past few days have been hectic, what with personal problems and car trouble. i really need to buckle down and look for a new car. my awesome jeep is about to give up the ghost. i love that car; we both have been through so much in this life. still, it’s time for a change. to break down and do a total makeover is something i’m willing to proceed with. it’s just that with the car leaving, all those memories i’ve had with it will float away…well, maybe not all the way. there are some things i will never forget about it. the front seats and back seats are fondly thought of as i write these words. oh how i will miss it...

anyway, as for the rest of this post, i want to forget the emotional stuff and focus on the Battlefield 3 beta for the Playstation 3. first off, this is for a console, not a computer. all the rumored, fabulous aspects of playing this game on a computer are lost on me. i can only tell what i have done. ok, so with that the first thing to say is, wow. i really REALLY liked what i played last night. i’m not an old school Battlefield veteran, but i have played them before. (i spent more time with Medal of Honor and Call of Duty on my old computer…) this new game in the series is pretty much the next progression from the original source. having never played any Battlefield game besides Battlefield 1943 and the sort of Battlefieldesque version on the latest Medal of Honor reboot, i can say that I managed to get a hang of the mechanics quite well, and quickly mind you.

i will admit that i am a rabid fan of the Call of Duty franchise, (i’ve stated that my favorite fps of all time was COD 2) but in the last few years the series has taken a stale nosedive. the enjoyment i used to have has been replaced with downright anger and frustration. the gameplay still felt like how it was on the computer, but something wasn’t quite right. COD 4: Modern Warfare was the last in the series i thought of as original, even though i didn’t want to upgrade to modern weaponry. the next installment, COD: World at War, was actually my favorite of the next gen series because it kept to its WWII roots. COD: MW2 was fun at first, but gradually began to fall to the wayside as i noticed many flaws in its design and overall presentation. COD: Black Ops was no different. Thus, the time has come for me to move on and try new things. having downloaded a supped up version of Battlefield 1943 from the Playstation Store, i quickly noticed a drastic shift. the gameplay was different in its overall style and choice making. as a player, i had to change my style of just “runnin’ and gunnin’”, and instead focus on more strategy and companionship in winning the games. this will now be my focus from here on out.

Battlefield 3 is already a wonderful game in its execution to be better than COD and the dedication to its craft and feel is truly remarkable. it’s hard to explain, but there is just something about running to a position, quickly jumping over a rail or wall, and then going prone all in one vast movement. in the COD games, i was never able to pull off these quick moves without getting cheaply shot over and over. the difference is astounding and you will most likely have to change your fps preference in regards to actually playing. the reality the makers tried to bring forth is a well done effort. no knifing from six feet away, no constant spawn killing, no instant kills with weaponry that shouldn’t be played in a cheating style, no unreal kills from weirdly associated shots or locations. nothing of the sort to be found here, at least from what i took of the beta. (killing an enemy is more fulfilling than any fps i’ve ever played. i don’t have that queasy motion of just pulling off a lucky kill and surviving by the skin of my teeth, but instead have a more refined and considerate notion as if i was doing good based off my skill of war mechanics and not some fantasy universe full of magical shots and explosions, ala COD. if that makes any sense…)

COD bashing aside, this game already feels amazing and surprisingly fun. i didn’t know for sure how it would be handled. would it be like COD, or perhaps like the Battlefield series in general? take little worry my friends because this game will cut the line down the middle. there is no straight comparison. COD is like a hide-and-seek/funhouse type game and Battlefield is more of an awesome, “i worked hard and my team won because we tried hard and accomplished our mission!” type game. what i mean is, no RAMBO can take on the entire match and get constant kills just by running around and being crazy. sure, there will be some who will play like that, and they will manage to get to that point, but the gameplay mechanics just don’t allow that to happen with ease like COD. you WILL HAVE TO WORK with your team. strategy is the key to winning and with that, i feel like i’m on an entire different level than the previous fps gaming i’ve logged many hours on.

Maybe COD has become the playground for the youth and Battlefield is the “Adult Swim” of fps gaming. i don’t know, but i’m going on twenty seven and i’m tired of being beat down at a game i used to have so much passion for. the COD universe has managed to become annoying with all the younglings taking over and spewing their verbal garbage. it’s not that i suck, because i admit to being damn good at COD, but it just isn’t the same. call me a bitter old man, but i know some out there agree. and for now, i can already say that Battlefield 3 is taking its place as my go-to game for online play. i just can’t imagine vast amounts of time being spent on the next COD, even though i will get it just to finish my “collection”. (seriously, if they can’t manage to change it up dramatically for their next incarnation, then i’m finally writing off the COD series. many have already, but i’ll give them one more chance after COD: MW3. a “wait and see” approach…)

oh, and not so i forget, the beta for Battlefield 3 was nice to look at, but of course can use some big touch ups. the gameplay was excellent, but some textures were not as great. i managed to fall through the floors a few times and sort of glitch up on others. graphics need to be upgraded pronto, and i know they can do the game more justice because other Playstation 3 fps are looking a bit more better than this one. it seems like a shame that the game is sort of an afterthought when it comes to consoles, but then again Electronic Arts did state that it was meant more for computers than the rest of us console jockeys. ah, and then there is the player count. i’ve heard rumors that COD: MW3 will have up to 32 people in online gaming, which is where everyone and their dog plays. why can’t the Battlefield team make this happen for us? those are just the few things that are on my mind, but overall, this game is going to rock anyway. i’m not getting my hopes up for a more bigger change with the graphics and multiplayer, and that’s perhaps the best thing anyone can do. i will enjoy this most definitely and i hope you all will too. see you online, October 26th!!! dig it…

Big Truck Seminoles...

2011-09-23T15:10:00.000-07:00

not much goin' on. well, tonight is special because i'm hosting my churches young adult bible study at my place. i'm just glad its all cleaned up and more roomy. if only i had a couple more chairs...

ah, and i forgot to say this before, but Glorieta's 50th anniversary is tomorrow!!! i'm going with my grandma and kristy. i'll be there a bit early to help the youth serve food, but all that aside, it looks to be a great experience. i'm looking forward to helping the youth and hopefully being some sort of role model. we'll see how everything goes!!! O_O"

oh, and on a quick note, i ate at Big Truck Tacos today with kristy at lunch. i had the shredded pork taco and a fish taco. if you ever come to oklahoma and are near 23rd and the paseo district, do yourself a favor and stop by there to bust face on awesome tacos. Aw, and don't forget to try the mango salsa!!!

Deep Fried Mashed Potatoes...

2011-09-19T10:03:00.000-07:00

i went to the fair last night!!! i took Kristy and my lil' bro Dylan. it was an awesome time. try the deepfried oreos!!!

Dried Booger Snot Rockets...

2011-09-17T09:45:00.000-07:00

once again i'm down in seminole and its the first Falls Creek meeting of the year. i can't believe i'm still doing this. i'm very grateful. later on today is an OU game. i think they're playing Florida or something. i just hope we steamroll over them!!!

oh, and i also got a brand new camera app called, "paper camera". it's freekin' awesome!!! you use it to take pics and they are then filtered to look like different types of art drawings. i altered an older pic i took at the zoo and used the pastel option. i was amazed at the quality and attention to detail. i'm such a nerd...

aight, well i'm going to check out now. events are starting to happen; people and places are moving. i'm just trying to stay afloat, dealing with life's trials and tribulations. it's very hard, but God is standing beside me..

Having A Chocolate High...

2011-09-12T16:04:00.000-07:00

monday's are the most goulish of the week. nobody wants to go to work or school. it sucks sooooo much ass. anyway, today was a tough one for both me and kristy. Guess we had too much fun this weekend at the zoo and movies. too much of a good time that life had to rear its ugly fat head and knock us down. i'll never understand any of it...

so, time is moving on and my birthday is fast approaching. on the 30th i'll be freekin' twenty seven years old. i don't know what to think of it. it wasn't that long ago when i was a twenty three year old in college, alone and depressed. twenty three is an important age for me. a lot happened that year. i tend to think of it and the following year the most...

right now i'm laying beside kristy, waiting on us both to move. were exhausted from the day. good thing we have each other to make things less bothersome. i guess that's what a good relationship really is...

Public Domain And Cheese...

2011-09-09T06:14:00.000-07:00

oh my golly gosh, i'm so sorry to keep long times between posts on here. i need to re-think this whole thing over. i've seen certain blogs die out, their creators throwing in the towel. but i straight up refuse to do that. this blog has always meant a lot to me and to just up and leave it would be cruel.

i called in today. my stomach is giving me a hard time. i'm gently walking on the edge these days. why do i risk losing everything i've done for myself up to this point??? the money isn't what's important to me, but my passions are. my responsibility is to that job and the people i work with. why am i taking it for granted??? why am i making excuses to not work??? having a passion is good an all, but when it interferes with my daily needs i should put a stop to it. but damnit, don't you ever feel like, "screw that, i'm gonna do what i want!!! and if i want to sit at my desk and write all day, well that's what i'm going to do!!!" yeah, all that and a bag of chips now. i'm most likely setting myself up for a big fall. i might even blog about how i screwed up and detail my current situation. i'd do that with shame, but also a sort of weird pride. if anything like that happens, i might just start all over and move somewhere. begin a new life in a different place.

i wonder how many people out there have written the same damn stuff i just wrote??? i'm not being original which is a writers worst fault besides spelling errors and nonsense...

Stickball, Funnel Cake, Vacation...

2011-09-03T23:05:00.000-07:00

i'm in a small town called Antlers with kristy and her family. i'm exhausted beyond belief, but that's ok. to say that this weekend was lax is a no no. instead it was an amazing time full of fun and good health. i feel more alive than ever. me and kristy arrived to Tuskahoma yesterday around 2pm. we then set up our tent and prepared for a hard stay. i say hard because the temperature was blazin'. regardless, that little annoyance didn't stop the good times.

i danced in that friday night's powwow. i haven't busted out the dance regalia since the OU powwow back in april. i've been a little uneasy since i broke my left foot this past summer, so this powwow was a real important event for me. overall, i guess i did alright. i've been running just about every day at work and i thought my dancing would benefit from it. i think it did a little bit...

ah, and as for saturday it was filled with a lot of events. first off we watched the fast pitch tournaments all day, kristy taking turns playing with her team. even i got to play for a brief moment!!! later on we watched the stickball tournament, which was Muskoke Creeks against the Tuskahoma Natives. stickball seems really intense, yet fun to play. i'm curious to try it out someday. oh, and the night ended with me and kristy riding the ferris wheel at the carnival.

overall, i'd say it was an amazing weekend. i'm going to bed very tired, but with some most excellent memories. happy labor day everyone.

Tuskahoma Party Time Excellent...

2011-09-01T09:15:00.000-07:00

last night i went to a fathom event and watched Scarface at amc quail springs on northside. that movie is soooo 80's, but i loved watching it anyway. too bad i had to pay 12.50 for one friggin' ticket!!! gaw...

the holiday weekend is a day away for me since i got this friday off for my usual ada doctor's appointment. me and kristy will then head down to tuskahoma for our labor day vacation. i'm thinking about dancing that friday night as well. i hope all my running exercise will benefit me...

so, in the end of things here, i want each and everyone of you out there have a wonderful weekend and take care of yourselves. the fall is right around the corner, which means time to dress up in warm clothes pretty soon!!!

Call of Schuyler 3...

2011-08-27T12:14:00.000-07:00

last night I played Call of Duty online for almost five hours. it felt good to go at it hardcore again. i was of course a bit rusty, but after a few hours my oldschool style came back. i guess i'm training for the next two shooters coming out, Battlefield 3 and Modern Warfare 3. i'm super stoked. it's good to be a gamer at the moment!!!

well my order of sushi just arrived. time to bust face...

Scotty, Order Up...

2011-08-25T10:12:00.000-07:00

i was named Scotty instead of the nickname "Sky", while waiting for my sandwich at city bites. no matter, no matter. in most awesome news, the cable guy stopped over yesterday and installed internet in my apartment!!! i can finally get back to online gaming!!!

oh, and i ran two miles today, so i feel pretty awesome awesome awesome!!! CHEESE!!!

Celebrate OK Times...

2011-08-22T07:07:00.000-07:00

um, you know what??? i guess i didn't realize it, but last saturday was the start of my third year doing a wolf at the door. it looks like its on four years, but its actually three. soooo, uh congratulations!!! uh, yyyyaaaaayyyyy i guess...

Wash, Washing, Wash, Washing...

2011-08-20T11:16:00.000-07:00

i ran today. in total it was about two miles. this training stuff for better health is intense. i really like it though. i have a clear head and my depression is nowhere to be found, at least for now. :/

i'm back at home, washing my clothes at dads. yeah, that's right. i'm here and washing clothes. it's too dang hot to wash at my apartments and its right next to the pool, so too crowded as well. anyway things are good and life is moving along. to sort of brighten things up i just watched this movie called, "Diary of A Whimpy Kid." lol it was pretty funny and harmful. i guess i need those types of things sometimes...

ok, like usual its time for me to go. i'm interested in finding footage for Battle Field 3. that game is so hot right now...

Fish Tacos...

2011-08-17T09:14:00.000-07:00

sorry for being m.i.a. on a wolf at the door. life's just been keepin' on and i always try to stay with it. things seem well. i'm workin' out almost everyday, running and bustin' my butt on p90x. i can run an entire mile now without stopping, which is something i haven't done since high school!!!

work is ok at best. i'm still plodding along, trying to keep everything in order and up-to-date. these dang contracts are crazy business...

my relationship with kristy has hit a mark. i'm not sure what's going to happen now, so i'll just brace for sudden impact.

how are all of you out there??? sorry for always thinking of myself. i hope you all are well and happy. your more important anyway.

Do Best, Forget Rest...

2011-08-08T19:52:00.000-07:00

falls creek was great as usual. i love it every time and despite the changes, the camp still holds a very special place in my heart. most people who have gotten to know me should, in fact, understand my serious dedication to this place. i've shared this with just about everyone, including those i love. there is no other place on the planet, other than my family's homes, that's more important to me than falls creek.

its monday, back to the grind. falls creek is just a small taste of heaven, but once its over we all have to get back into action and set ourselves against the world. being a Christian is facing the challenges of life with faith on God. its time to live once again.

oh, and not to forget, this is the second week of my p90x training. so far so good. tonight was hard, but i feel better than i did during the first round. :)

so that's it for now. i'll keep you fine people up-to-date on the happenings here. dig it...

Stock Market Calorie Dropsssss...

2011-08-04T22:06:00.000-07:00

two things to write about. first off, i'm typing this while at Indian Falls Creek. it's my favorite place to vacation and i managed to get off work for a couple of days to come. it's such a blessed time to spend here amongst Native people. even more special when its in a Godly place such as this. thank you Lord!!!

and the second thing to mention is that i started P90X. i have tried this workout program a few times, but failed in my attempt to develope a habit. this time things are different. the Lord has motivated me to get in shape and do right by myself. my relationship with kristy is great and my acceptance of myself is being worked on slowly. i'm actually trying my best to love, not hate myself.

anyway, P90X is brutal and i mean, BRUTAL!!! since i'm here, i have to miss two days of my training, but that's ok. i knew starting on August 1st that this will mess with my camp schedual, but i'm not worried. i'm still motivated to do this and since i've been running everyday at lunch, things are begining to move smoothly. i'm developing a routine and things are falling into place. thank you Lord!!!

ok, well it's thursday night and i'm here to help with the last splashes paper for friday. i better get back to it. see you all next time, and with an update on the P90X front!!! (oh, andi still want to post that pic i drew. give me some more time...)

Cowboys, Aliens & Natives...

2011-07-30T08:08:00.000-07:00

soooo, last night was awesome!!! me and kristy went and saw Cowboys & Aliens. to some, it might have been super silly, but for us it was great!!! the really best part was seeing Adam Beach in a new movie, plus the wonderful Apache extras on set. (kristy is San Carlos Apache) we laughed and cheered as the Natives outsmarted the aliens and helped bring victory to the wild west.

Right now i'm back at dad's, washing clothes and trying to stay cool. i just got done running around the block and i reel rejuvinated. there really is something great about workin' out. i know i need it...

oh, and this weekend is Indian Hills!!! i'm not dancing this year because i feel i'm not ready. after breaking my foot and gaining some weight, i feel as if i should get back in shape somewhat. i'm actually looking forward to it. no more tight clothes and flabby skin. time to tone up!!!

well i gotta go. Falls Creek is next week and i'm very excited about going at least one day. i'm finishing up the last touches to my Native American calendar and when that's done, i'll try and get it posted on here. see you all laters!!!

Wiggle Room...

2011-07-27T21:59:00.000-07:00

i'm designing a cartoon picture for the splashes news paper. i hope its used because i really like how its turning out. its a Native American animal calendar, just like the ones you can find at chinese restaraunts. instead of dragons, rats, and monkeys, we have buffalo, eagles, armadillos, and bigfoot among others. there's even funny descriptions for each animal, which are placed on all twelve months. yeah, i'm gooing over this little project and am very excited about how it will all turn out!!!

and so, tonight was church and it was good. i spent time praying and basking in the Lord's house. its so peaceful at church. there is never anything wrong when being surrounded by Christians, sharing time with each other. i always get a good feeling when i'm with my church family. when there's more than one Christian together, the power of God is strong.

have a great night folks...

The Laughing Cow...

2011-07-25T19:10:00.000-07:00

i'm at a splashes meeting right now. its so much fun!!! were trying to come up with funny ideas for the back page. i think were loosin' our minds right now. the ideas we have so far are ridiculous. something to do with x-men and she hulk. also, maybe worf from star trek.

i'm also very tired, but in a good mood. i'll pass the time at home by watching rifftrax. boy oh boy, do i love those rifftrax!!! ;)

i really have nothing else to say. g'night!!!

Mexi Dips & Chips...

2011-07-22T19:23:00.000-07:00

i'm itchin' to write something good. not that i hate my previous entrys, but something more relatable to everyone i guess...

soooo, what was it about the last post huh??? i already made someone mad over it. guess who it is???

ok, so yeah things have been extra bad with me, but the past weekend was a life changer. i can't go into detail about it, but it was a revelation. something happened to me. something HEAVY...

i feel different. sorry about my last post to those who read this thing...

Time And Time Again...

2011-07-16T11:34:00.000-07:00

my mood is one of blah blah blah. you ever felt like screaming so loud that the world will notice??? you know, like your voice is so loud that everyone will stop in their tracks and take notice to your own freekin' pain??? i guess when your this upset over everything ever, you become a more selfish person. i'd like to try and cover all the bases because i think too much. dammit, i hate myself and how i feel all the time.

time seems to be in this weird alternate space. i don't feel connected to anything. i've been thinking this is the result of my attempted suicides a while back. i believe i was supposed to die back then, but instead failed in my attempt and am now in limbo or some shit. why do i always wear black??? why am i such a skeeze...

i'm at dads washing my stinkin clothes. the same ol' clothes i've been slammin' on my back for years. they're a part of my being, not to be changed or altered. most of them are black, not bright. colors make me sick. i've only made a few exceptions for things like my job and powwow outfit. subpar is my overall appearance. i try to not take pride, but i'd only be lying if i stated that to anyone. i'm obsessed with my looks and absolutely hate how i look. i'm fat, shaggy, and in need of a change. back in college i starved myself so much that i dropped to 155lbs. my body suffered from that ordeal, but i looked so awesome. at least i thought i did. others couldn't agree. my grandma said i looked like a holocaust survivor. i liked that comparison...

i'm not the best of company. i ruined my girlfriends birthday night out. i drank, but didn't want to. i just wanted to keep the peace. i hate drinking, especially with other indians. i'm part indian, so i must sound like a hypocrite. i'd like to be amongst other native people, but not in that situation. it hurts so much to see these things happen. but yeah, i'm a fighter and i want to take on the world and save everybody. no more hurt and no more struggle. i of course can't do anything about it. i think too much and end up hurting myself even more.

here's one interesting moment. i'm currently watching the old 90's show, "My So Called Life." sundace channel is broadcasting something from my past. i'm a 90's kid. the best and worst times of my life happened back then. can you still get passed the fact that your parents divorced, you saw your mom get beat up by a monster, and your dad become a man whore???

ha ha, Buffalo Tom is playing live on the show, and jared leto is being an ass to claire danes. i love how the characters wear the same clothes once in a while. that seems more real than any other show out there. i mean, what kind of kids have something different for every day of the week??? this is taking me back...

teen angst can still be a part of you when your suposably an adult. do we ever really grow up??? won't we all still think about the same things when we're old and grumpy??? i'll probably still be thinking about my past like it was still present. divorce, anguish, depression, rape, death, pills, beer, weed, sex, cuts, trips, my ex, my grandma, my mom, my dad, my dead brother, music, books, movies, writing, drawing, sleeping, colors, black, white, grey, cross hatch, rockstar, teddy, cloie, otto, hammy, driving, dreaming, new mexico, colorado, kansas, arizona, california, texas, oklahoma, crossroads mall, penn square mall, falls creek, kissing, touching, rubbing, humping, tight pants, band shirts, jurrasic park, aliens, star wars, akira, charlie brown, snoopy, church, youth groups, girls and their different ways, sitting, standing, hate, love, chocolate cake, koolaid, iced tea, pizza, pete and pete, doug, mxtxvx, the smashing pumpkins, deftones, radiohead, U2, bruce springsteen, creek, seminole, grass dancing, fancy dancing, powwows, camping, swimming, running, baseball, basketball, heaven, hell, my home...

all is not that well with me. i'm hurting at the mo'...

Expecto Nerdydum...

2011-07-14T10:12:00.000-07:00

i'm excited because me and kristy are seeing the final harry potter tonight. the geek in me is ready for the final "chapter" of this beloved franchise. let's just see how they handle it. my expectations are pretty high.

oh, and this week is going to be a fun time. kristy's birthday is very soon, so we're going out tomorrow to celebrate. i just hope things don't get to crazy. and that's about it. nothing much more to say. you all take care now...

The Library Of Schuyler...

2011-07-11T23:02:00.000-07:00

today was a good day. i got paid and went out and bought two book shelves. i've been waiting for a long while for these pieces of furniture. what's exciting is that i finally get to display my books and movies. all the boxes i moved in with will finally be out of here, and more living room space will be available. in my dreams, back before i moved to my current location, i often imagined having my belongings neatly organized and properly handled. now of course these are all just items and not going to be much else, but i know that. i just have a passion for my hobbies and its an accomplishing moment to give these things a nice place to be. boxes are soooo frumpy and depressing. just seeing them sitting here all stacked up and stuff reminds me of the song, "Even If It Kills Me", by Motion City Soundtrack. Look it up!!!

aight, so its late and i'm freekin' tired. its going to be a busy week for me, so i better get started on my rest. i don't want to be a sleepy piece of crap...

Lights Inside My Head...

2011-07-08T09:49:00.000-07:00

the california chicken melt at city bites is my new favorite sandwich. its friday and my weekend is starting to be booked. tonight i'm hanging with kristy and her buddy, then goin' to a wedding in anadarko tomorrow. i miss my church so much, so i'm going to make an effort and be there on sunday.

people watching is a curious matter to me. i tend to tell their moods and guess their inner thoughts by studying them. i've always be observant in this strange way. not just with people, but with other things like ceilings, walls, the ground, and even bugs as they go about their daily business. i also have a knack for spotting faces on such items i've listed. does that make me weird???

4th Of July Limitations...

2011-07-04T15:54:00.000-07:00

my short vacation is now over. back to work tomorrow. but i never let that bother me because Falls Creek is still coming, and that is my REAL vacation. anyway, me and kristy went to dallas and then came back to stay the night with my dad in fort cobb. over this period of time, my depression was flaring up and down, never to absolutely leave me. i don't mind saying this here because it helps me to write it down. i'm so tired of hurting like this. when will it end???

when i'm depressed, i have to take time away from the world and just wait it out. of course that's not a good idea for people like me. here's an old story. i remember watching tv and seeing a commercial for depression medicine. the speaker listed symptoms that, if one should have, might be related to manic depression or bi-polar disorder. i thought this over and one day mentioned it to my mom. she got angry and told me to never say that or think that. i must have been around 15 or 16...

is there a point to this post??? no, but my mind is beginning to be at ease. i'm sorry...

Banana Nut Cookies...

2011-06-30T09:32:00.000-07:00

ahoy there maties. schuyler here with another round of blogging' from my noggin'. not much to say except that i've been working out everyday, running on the treadmill. i jog around two miles or so, and with my new runnin' shoes, things are just awesome. it feels so good to get a great workout. i'm reminded of my high school baseball days where i ran so much that i often puked. i really hate running, but i can do it. i trained so hard at it back then that it still is triggered through my veins.

aww, and as i type this i'm watchin' The Office. probably my favorite show besides South Park. its season six and i've been watching it so much that the episodes are burned into my brain and eyes. when i really think about it, this simple, yet hilariously awesome show, has been one of the best medications i've ever taken. laughter is addictive and i can't get enough of it...

Brased Short Ribs...

2011-06-24T10:32:00.000-07:00

there is time for work and time for play. i try to combine the two, but usually to no effect. i'm in ada again, eating a free lunch of ribs, carrots, and cabbage. its freekin' good. i'm definitely at play right now. this roller coaster of a week has finally settled down to me getting some more alone time in a relaxed state. i really do like the drive out here. it reminds me of all those trips to santa fe, but without the anxiety.

tonight i'll probably end up at mike's. its now become something i look forward to every weekend. the music i'm jammin' is smooth and ambient. the kind of stuff you can ignore, or fill in the backgrounds. i try to not be picky. things become much more simpler when you just let it flow...

Hurting My Overall Mood...

2011-06-22T20:40:00.000-07:00

i had some problems this afternoon. my depression was taking over and killing my spirit. sometimes i think i've been messed with. perhaps some bad medicine. if i've caused this for myself, i regret it. if i've hurt someone or something, i'm sorry. i don't like being this way. its hurting worse and worse each time. it comes and goes like the weather...

Mowing Lawns, 100+ Heat...

2011-06-19T21:18:00.000-07:00

well, its felt like forever since i've been on here. never to forget, i'm happy to once again be writing something. without giving it much thought, it seems that i have been creating something quite big. its a writing project that's been ongoing for a few months now. the project is a list of musical artists i'm currently into. not much when you read this, but as of right now, the document is close to 100 pages. that's a lot of music, and i haven't even gotten to writing down the artists i have on my ipod. overall, i think its something special and i have no idea where its leading, but i'm excited!!!

in other news, my job has been extended another year and my foot is much much better. life is good, but things are so confusing lately. i'm not sure what to make of it. too many thoughts and old memories taking over. i can only keep the peace and do my best, knowing that God is watching over me every day.

Kung-fu Schuyler, 84...

2011-06-10T21:07:00.000-07:00

howdy everyone. i'm laying back against my couch, watching my crappy bootleg of Tron Legacy. its a special weekend for me because my little brother is here. i promised to spend some time with him this summer, so he's here with me. speaking of summer, i just found out i get to keep my job for another year. it was something boiling under my skin for the longest time, and now my prayers have been answered.

today was a long and troubling occasion. my inner thoughts were scratching at my heart, causing me to get depressed. on my way to pick up lil' bro, i wanted to stop over at moms and speak my mind. i thought i could get it all off my shoulders, but wait. there was another thing happening. i learned that my problems were just my own, and i shouldn't spew them out on my family when they have their own. times are tough with my relatives. there is never a peaceful moment that lasts no longer than a nap...

tomorrow were going to see Kung-fu Panda 2. later on we might ever go watch that new flick called Super 8. i'm most excited for that. oh, and earlier today i bought my very first bed. i can finally sleep in a relaxed position now!!!

Steak Burgers With Fries...

2011-06-05T10:00:00.000-07:00

red earth is the starting point for oklahoma powwows. the best ones start immediately after and last all summer. its brilliant how much these things matter to native culture. i love every aspect of them, and i hope to keep the traditions alive for as long as i'm still kickin'. too bad i can't dance right now, what with my foot and all...

Only Shallow, Tight Around...

2011-06-01T18:25:00.000-07:00

can you dig it??? i'm once again at the diamond ballroom, patiently waiting to see the Deftones. but before that i must take a quick trip with my old friends, The Dillinger Escape Plan. the opening band, which i'm sorry i forgot the name of, have just finished. quite the trip indeed, is what i'm thinking. too bad my foot is still on the mend...

i can't get into a heated discussion on my love for the Deftones right now. that's been done already. (look for the old post.) what i can say is, man, i sure have gotten older. physically and mentally. my body aches like an old building, swaying from a precision strike against its side. my mind is tired, lazily sitting here like a stone toad beside a water fountain. i don't think i'm supposed to be doing this for much longer, or at least in these jeans...

Holiday In Apachia...

2011-05-31T21:38:00.000-07:00

my memorial weekend vacation came to a close yesterday, as kristy and i pulled into my apartment complex. i was very tired, yet full of various memories and thoughts. some aspects that stood out are the mountains, the weather, the food, the people, the colors, the time, and my rest. as we drove back home, my mind raced to find answers to some of life's current obligations. the stress was lifted, then put back on, lifted and put on again. tick-tock, tick-tock.

at least passing through el paso was nice. lookin' over the distance and seeing mexico came as an overwhelming sight. i was immediately reminded of two things. first was an old local band called, At The Drive-in, and their song, "invalid litter department", an oath to the boarder and all the missing women who lay dead in the desert. and second was a friend of mine whom i was once close to, and now lives there. the thought of that city and its notorious reputation made me scared for her. i hope she is safe and sound...

what am i to do now??? time was spent being happy, so can that happen again??? patience is a good trait to have.

Pineapple, Orange, Limeaid...

2011-05-27T15:37:00.000-07:00

i sit in a smoked out room, waiting for my flight. the ceiling tiles look like they've been run through a swamp. the people here are quiet, patiently smoking in this designated space. interesting how they all stare off, flinging their ashes into the complimentary trays. the smoke smells good this time. i usually hate it.

this is my trip to phoenix, arizona. i'm visiting my girlfriends family, on her apache side. this looks to be interesting. just to get out of oklahoma is nice. these past few weeks have been stressful. broken cars and broken feet. tornadoes and heat. to get away is a blessing. i'm really excited to be here and doing something on my own again.

bye bye oklahoma. i'll see you when i get back. please be nice and cool...

Twisty, Dusty, Casino, Tornadoes...

2011-05-25T06:20:00.000-07:00

yesterday oklahoma was hit by an onslaught of tornadoes from every direction. the damage is still being calculated, and things seem pretty down. me and my family survived by the grace of god. still, for others, the tornadoes did a lot worse. witnessing the awesome, yet fierce power of our creator is a humbling, and thought provoking experience. we can never be too comfortable, seeing as how our world can, literally, be thrown against the wind like a piece of paper. i've survived through many of natures angry wraths, but have never forgotten any of them. when a storm cloud brews, only to develop a massive "finger of god" that brushes over landscapes like a child playing with paint, you begin to notice, very clearly, just how small and insignificant you are. of course no one is really as forgetful as that, but it does make you reassess your life when you can easily stare death in its face while driving on I-35 southbound...

Motor Cycle Drive-by...

2011-05-20T18:30:00.000-07:00

howdy fine folks. checkin' in from the Diamond Ballroom, about to see Third Eye Blind and get all teary eyed. heh heh, naw, but, well who knows. this band got me through some tough times. i spent many private moments listening to their selftitled debut. i don't want to list all the details, but let's just say the subject matter hit close to home. tales of heartbreak and doubt, selfishness and stupidity, winning and failing.

i'm pressed against a stone wall, typing away on this phone of mine. ironic how i make this my outlet to the outside, despite the mammoth debts owed to payments and responsibility. i like to take the time to reflect, seeing things from different angles. my perspective on living and relationships notwithstanding. the ambience is one of talk, people with ideas and feelings as well. maybe they are connected to Third Eye Blind just like me??? those memories from past lives. i gotta think that that's the case, seeing as how they are all close to my own age.

how's it goin' to be, when you don't know me anymore??? i sang that song at high volume, hoping that she would hear me far away. the delusions of grander got the best of me. i couldn't take the heavy feelings deep within. i cried and smoked some more, hoping that i would collapse inside and my body explode like a bomb. i'd take myself to some far off place, wishing i could stay there and forget. but no, you never forget. the pain still lingers and i'm sitting here wondering why it won't stop. gothic much???

Mother Help My Bone...

2011-05-17T19:25:00.000-07:00

ok, i often post events and this needs to be a quick one. i broke my left foot, or something of that sort. the doctor said its an evulsion (i am probably spelling that wrong...) on the fifth bone. i'll just say its my pinky toe. it looked a lot worse that it felt, but there was pain. what happened was me falling like a dork. i was throwing around a softball with my girlfriend and when it came to be my turn to catch it, i fell like a statue. i always trip over myself, and have been that way since i was a kid. ugh...

my mom took me to ada. that trip was much longer than i'm used to, but i had no choice. she really helped me in a tight situation since i've busted my foot............ and also broke my car.

i didn't break it on purpose though. it was some weird accident out of my control. i'm the LAST person to ask about cars, so i currently feel like i'm in the twilight zone. as i've said twice today, "if it isn't one thing, its another..."

don't feel sorry for me and don't think i'm whining. i'm just speaking my mind and trying to unleash this overflow of emotional mail. well, my phone is about to die, so i'll chat later. peace be with you...

Defense, Defense, Defense...

2011-05-13T18:59:00.000-07:00

almost halftime. the thunder are keeping ahead of the grizzly's by a few points. i'm sitting in my mom's rocking chair, writing this post. my mom and girlfriend are making me feel guilty if i don't attend church this sunday. i do go to church, but this time its at my girlfriends. we're leaving dallas way early sunday to get back in time. i'll just be tired and probably stressed out, but i'm gonna do it for kristy. she's very special and caring, so she deserves kindness and good things.

thunder are now up by eleven. i'm exhausted by todays work. my best friend is currently at a concert. i thinks its avenged sevenfold. i'm not really a fan, but i do have one, or maybe two of their old albums. ok, this post is taking too long to finish. i'm just burnin' fumes. halftime now, thunder ahead by ten. i'm off track and conversing while writing. i guess its just nice to write. i feel like a mass of space, and the conversation i'm having with kristy is getting very weird and strange...

right, well i'm out of ideas. oh, i do have something to mention quickly. everyone of you should check out the criterion collection. these are movies of very high caliber and class. their website contains the vast assortment, listing detailed facts for each film, as well as release dates for upcoming films. yeah, it totally sounds like i'm hyping the company as if i were an employee, but let me tell ya, these are terrific films. Art, is actually the right word to best describe these flicks. some of my most cherished are released through criterion like, Rushmore, Seven Samurai, Days of Heaven, Brazil, Crumb, and The Thin Red Line.

ok, time for me to go. the thunder game is getting crazy and the technicals are flying. the games gonna end somehow, some way.

ugh, i'm tired...

Thundaaa And Lightening...

2011-05-12T09:50:00.000-07:00

the california chicken melt at city bites is an awesome sandwich. the overall taste is exquisite, with a roasty bite and salty lick. grabbing myself a bag of cheddar sun chips and some sweet, black tea, i'm ready to go!!! oh, how nice the simple things are. i wish life could be more like this. of course, that's not the overall plan of things. nope, life can't be this easy and nice, because if it was, what would we learn??? how would we develope backbone??? i'm not a theorist, but i can think things with a hopeful, genuine sense of some sort of clarity. that's why god gave me a brain for.

i recently purchased this little device called a "headphonie." its a little critter-like person that's adorable and portable. you connect your musical device through a chord and the little guy plays your tunes. he's a miniature speaker!!! cuteness aside, this wonderful gadget packs a punch and is durable. you won't believe the sound quality it expells!!! its just one of the many things that describe the nerdyness of me. i wanna get one for my girlfriend!!!

well, its time to get back to my sandwich. i'm going to dallas again this weekend, so i'll try to keep in touch. thanks for being patient while i wait for a new computer during these, "dark ages." oh, GO THUNDAAA!!!

Quarantine The Past...

2011-05-06T09:58:00.000-07:00

the choctaw free wifi is awesome to use here in ada. yep, i'm once again at the indian hospital, getting my prescriptions and doing bloodwork. i'm not a fan of hospitals, but the drive makes it worth it. that, and i get to take off work for a lil' bit.

its may now, and that means freshness. well, that's probably only a bit right. it also means summer, heat, kids, pools, fireworks, ice cream trucks, powwows, movies, sports, air conditioning, driving, working, loving, and sleeping. its pretty much a mixed bag. i try to take it all in stride...

Nostrils Are Forgiving Hopefully...

2011-04-29T19:12:00.000-07:00

i'm at ihop, brainstorming for indian falls creek articles to write in the splashes. the splashes are the weekly news paper scripts we make every summer. its something i'm very proud to be a part of.

ugh, i'm also still sick. i might have a sinus infection...

there isn't anything to write about at the moment. i'm stuck in this funk, and i can't really function that well. its as if i'm under a strange net, or perhaps a force field....

ugh, well in other, better news, the new harry potter trailer is out and its awesome. oh, and you all should also check out this trailer for a movie called, "13 Assassins." its the new takeshi miike film. you know, the guy who made "Ichi the killer" and "Audition"??? anyway, give it a looksee, because it might be freekin' sweet!!!

dig it...

My Snot Runneth Over...

2011-04-27T20:49:00.000-07:00

i'm very tired and sick. well, not sick, sick, but instead stopped up. my sinuses are driving me crazy and today has just been a downer. at the moment i'm laying on the couch, watching Platoon. this is probably my second or third favorite war film. charlie sheen was a good actor and this film showcased it. he was winning once...

my sleeping habits haven't been so good either. my dreams are confusing and erratic. i can't decipher any of them. but what's the point of that??? they're just random images flying by at breakneck speed and you never really remember them that much. well, some stay with you. the ones that are usually near the end of your heavy sleep, or whatever...

what's the point in telling you all my day when there is nothing worthwhile??? i say this, i guess, in order to drain my thoughts. my head is stopped up and it can't take any more filler. what am i, a flash drive or somethin'??? no flash drive can hold all that's been through my mind. ugh, my mind. a place of limbo. a place where i hide away in order to protect myself from harm. too bad i can be hurt there as much as anywhere else...

HOV Lane...

2011-04-23T00:36:00.000-07:00

i'm currently laying down in an unfamiliar bed, in an unfamiliar house, in an unfamiliar place. as of right now, i'm spending the weekend in dallas with my girlfriend and her family. so far its been quite nice and i hope that feeling lasts all day, everyday. i was very nervous coming here, but things seem to have settled and i'm relieved.

the drive here was a bit long, but not terrible. i had a lot of time to think of important issues while staring at passing objects and places. (kristy wouldn't let me drive...) my main concern was understanding my own confusion. my brain has constantly been on overdrive and won't stop for nothing. if the top of my head was pointy and spun, you could juice some oranges and lemons...

yowza, i'm crazy tired, so i gotta say g'night for now. i for sure need some sleep, and hopefully, if all goes well, sweet dreams will be had. dig it??? dug it... bleh bleh bleh (sinus congestion and burning eyeballs)

The Weekend Starts Here...

2011-04-15T20:40:00.000-07:00

hey this is schuyler, just writing in. i'm currently out on the town with my honey bee, kristy. it's so far been an awesome time and tomorrow will be even better. the ou powwow is happening and i'm coming out of hibernation to dance. we'll see how things go...

oh, and tomorrow morning is freekin' record store day!!! stay tuned my gentle and kind folks. dig it...

Words For They...

2011-04-09T22:20:00.000-07:00

iv'e witnessed many things. my words will show no respect for what's been. i'm just as confused as ever, but not completely gone. i often find myself thinking too deeply over matters that should seem clear. my head hurts like a fishbowl dropping from someplace high. i want to be knowledgeable of all things, but that's being greedy. i take what i get, and hopefully learn from it. twenty six years is a long time to be in bed, or sitting down. its prime moments to get out there and live. life is not meant to be wasted and burned. each step i take is getting me closer to my next level. life does have meaning and i believe that now more than ever.

ever seen the edge; that moment where its light and dark??? i have. its not the place to be when its not your time. there is a void, a short run to the bottoms of your soul, which will gasp for breath. my eyes are tired from all my subjugations. the things i've put myself through. enough has passed to where i can't stand it any more. my body is weak from self torment. my mind is thirsty for purity. i am in need of an awakening. a chance to live life the way its meant to be. humble and kind. happy and thankful. joyous and blessed.

my hand has fallen asleep...

Maple Bacon...

2011-04-02T15:25:00.000-07:00

i'm currently sitting against my couch watching The Office and jamming old school screamo, courtesy of the band, Page. 99. one day i'll make a massive post for them, but until that time comes, we'll all have to make do with these dark ages i'm currently dealing with. (no computer or internetz...)

i think i'll go to mikes later and hang out. kristy is here with me and its nice to have her back from the recent business trip she was on. ah, and this morning, for the first time ever in my new home, i made BREAKFAST!!! i freekin' nailed it!!!

alright, that's it for now. i just wanted to check in and let you all know i'm still here. alive though??? well not according to my new profile pic. i look like a corpse...

Weekend At Schuyler's...

2011-03-28T09:04:00.000-07:00

things seem to be happening at the moment for me. many things, of which i have been hard pressed to determine their validity. truth aside, it’s just more or less plain confusion on my part. you see, my life is really starting to move forward, but along the way i seldom come across a bump that diverts my path. these things are usually issues from the past and in the case of this last weekend, the past is catching up again. but here’s the thing, my past is old news, but it’s manifested itself into a new alternative for me…

one of my goals i promised myself to accomplish is get my master’s degree. there is a possibility for that goal to be done very soon. i don’t want to discuss the situation on here yet, but i’ll just say, it’s very exciting and also very scary. a solid mixture of the two…

other bumps that have skewered my path are ideals, or maybe just feelings. my ideals are, often or not, just my imagination running wild. i have a habit of thinking too much, and i mean WAY too much. this past weekend was full of these things. i’m confused over some important issues and it worries me. i pray about them everyday, so i do know that things will work out in some form, but maybe not in the way i wanted…

oh, there is some good news though. yesterday i picked up my record player from a repair man i found sporadically. it works and now i can play all the vinyl albums i’ve been collecting the past few years!!! last night i jammed some Bruce Springsteen and Led Zeppelin. playing records in my own place has been one of my most sought after dreams for a very long time. i can’t believe i actually got to do it!!! dig it…

Cuties Are Delicious...

2011-03-23T07:25:00.000-07:00

oh my goodness, its been another long gap in-between posts. these really are the dark ages on a wolf at the door... anyway, despite these hangups, i'm still alive and kicking. things on the home front are good and my personal life is moving along, but my family is having trouble. yeah, there's no need for me to discuss such things here because i know a lot of you have the same issues yourselves. such is life in a dysfunctional family...

oh, so have you all checked out this music video for a song called, "friday"??? its by this young girl named rebecca black. all the scuzzlebutt going on is pointing to it being the worst song EVER made!!! i've watched it twice and it gets funnier each time. it's almost baffling how bad it really is. now i'm not one to gossip and post on current POP culture outside music banter, but sheesh, this is just BAD. i mean bbbbbaaaaaaddddddd... look it up if you don't believe me!!! never have i seen or heard such horrible "music"...

ha ha, so in other news, my best friend mike gave me his black leather chair. it's totally awesome and fits in with my style of laid back slacker comfort. my apartment is growing in my own image and design and i can't be more happy. it's really starting to kick in now. I GOT MY OWN PLACE!!!

so that's all i'm gonna post for now. keep your heads up and enjoy life because i'm finding out how much better it is than the alternative. dig it...

Gotta Have Faith...

2011-03-16T07:47:00.000-07:00

shoot, i really miss writing on here. using my phone just isn't the same. anyway, i'm here and I have not, nor will not forget you all. i guess we could call this the dark ages. ugh, it almost feels like i'm tweeting, or whatever most people seem to do. well you can take that notion and shove it!!! this isn't that kind of blog yo!!! i care too much about the content and the personal on this site to just let it go to waste or disappear. right, so at the moment i'm here at work and trying to make a living. my apartment had been awesome and already i've established my own uniqueness to the place. its just taking a little while for me to set up furniture and entertainment...

as for music, ive been reading up on sooo much stuff that its making my head spin. i have this 52 page list, consisting of three columns in ten point font. what's written there are artists for me to check out when I get the chance. i'm currently in the beginning stages of outlining future progress. i want a brand new computer and a friggin' huge hard drive to contain all this stuff. the geek in me is excited about these future endeavors!!! it'll be a big project that i plan on doing for many years to come. they say that the internet is an archive. well i'm here to start collecting and learning for myself.

i guess i should stop for now. it's time to get back to work. you all take care and keep jammin'!!! dig it...

Battle Los Schuylerles...

2011-03-11T17:25:00.000-08:00

hey my blogger folks, this is schuyler and i'm at the movies about to watch Battle Los Angeles. yeah, the reviews were not that good, but whatever. i just wanted to see some dumb action to distract me from this hard week i've had. oh, its starting, so laters!!!

Tis a time to sleep in or dine out...

2011-03-07T12:36:00.000-08:00

hey fellow readers. here's another cell phone post. I just got back from ada yet again and am now waiting on my afternoon appointment here in okc. things have been good here in the schuyler camp. i'm all moved in and enjoying the much needed space. as i write this i'm jamming various dance/indie rock music. i just have way too much fun doing this.

well, sorry for the real lack of juicy writing, but i'm a bit strapped at the moment without a decent computer or internet. thank goodness for this awesome phone!!! so, you all take care and enjoy yourselves. time is short and the zombies are coming sooner than we think...

laters!!!

Moving Day...

2011-02-28T22:19:00.000-08:00

hello campers!!! this is schuyler deal reporting from the frontlines of life, and so far life is freekin' good!!! i'm making this quick post with my phone since i won't be near a computer any time soon. as the title says, today is moving day. well, later on it will be. the time has finally come for me to actually leave the nest and head out into that big world out there. i've already been in it, but that was just practice i suppose. this time its for realz and i'm as ready as i'll ever be. god bless those who have helped me get this far. i'm sorry if i was ever pushy, or rude, or arrogant, or even terrible these past few years. i never meant to be that way and i apologize for everything. if it wasn't for all of you who helped me, i wouldn't have made it this far. thank you so much for your kindness and love.

so, as you should already have figured out, i can't post any music this time. never fear though, because i have lots of plans for the future of this blog and as far as the writing goes, its being taken to the next level. i plan on more detailed overviews of the artists as well as delicate, yet personal reviews of albums. there is one such band that i've been patiently waiting to write about and after some recent events, now is the time to gush over their music and show off how much of a geek i am!!! heh heh

alright, well Kristy just texted me, so this is goodnight for now. don't think i've forgotten all of you and this blog. its just that life is finally moving and i'm very excited to be alive. i'll catch you all again shortly, so don't go anywhere because a wolf at the door will be right back after these important events. laters...

Cell Phone...

2011-02-24T11:41:00.000-08:00

with all said and done, it's weird how bills look once you get them in the mail. i guess i need to get used to the awkwardness of how it all looks on print because i'm having a hard time figuring out how much to pay for my cell phone charges. ugh, oh well. it's not a big deal. i know things will work out in the end, so no use worrying over money like it's my life's blood or something. i knew that once i started my own phone line i'd be taking on a responsibility, so there. anyway, i'm currently at home writing this post. i didn't feel good at all this morning, so i stayed home today. i think it stems from yesterdays scramble at work. i got so much stacked up and i did accomplish a lot, but after the day was through, i felt like nothing was done. i went to church and came home feelin' sick. i guess it just carried on to today. oh well, at least i'm blogging again!!!

this coming weekend will be awesome and pretty busy. friday night i'm hangin' out with kristy, then who knows what. on saturday i'm shopping for some furniture with my mom and then taking kristy to the conservatory to watch Red City Radio play at their cd release show. and as for sunday, i'm gettin' together with my family and we're gonna watch the thunder vs. the lakers. after that, i gotta start packin' for my big move next tuesday. overall, it's goin' to be zoppity!!!

so, yesterday during the last hour or so of work, i happened upon an older band in my music collection that i haven't listened to in a long time. i played their music a bit loudly while i worked away the last minutes of my schedule. the band i'm talking about is called, Boris.

boris are a three piece band from tokyo, japan who have been playing their own selections of genres since 1992. they are known for their intense and very loud shows of pure heavy metal. well, not metal like you think, but the more obscure and extreme genres like drone and doom metal. recently they have incorporated other styles like dream-pop/ambient/shoegaze and post-metal. it's easy to say, that if you like thee styles of, say, Isis, Neurosis, Cult of Luna, Earth, Sun O))) and Pelican, then you should like boris. heck, even if you like the shoegaze styles of My Bloody Valentine, then you should like boris. check it...

oh, and before i forget, i'm only posting one of their albums and that album, of course, if called, Pink. it's their most highly acclaimed and my favorite. its what got me into them as well as many many others. it's a masterpiece of music that will challenge you as well as compliment you. dig it...

http://www.megaupload.com/?d=2YYG5IMW

smell phone...

Wasabi Snooters...

2011-02-22T17:22:00.000-08:00

hello boys and girls, this is schuyler checking in from home. it's been another long time since i've posted, so i won't bother with the apologies. these days have been magical and this past weekend was no exception. friday night was spent with my honey kristy, walking around bricktown and gazing at the strange folks wandering to and fro. the night ended with us being goofy to the extreme!!!

we were bluish that night...

ah, and then there was sushi saturday. me and mike ate at this local place called, "gogo sushi," or something to that effect. i was super stoked and he was as well. after that we went back to his place and chilled out, watching television and enjoying the relaxing effects of our old high school habits...

my hair looks so new wave... egads!!!

and finally came sunday and with that, a nice trip up north to tulsa. i stopped and visited with my old college roommate and great friend, jackie. we hung out, playing some Call of Duty: Black Ops, then later on hit up starbucks and some cheap video game store. i left that place with an awesome double vinyl of U2's classic and my favorite album of all time, The Joshua Tree. sweet!!!

it was after i left that the real euphoria began. tulsa's highway's are a bust, so it was a bit difficult to get down to cain's ballroom. but after some quick effort on my part i eventually found the place, parked my car close to the venue and ventured forth to where i was about to watch freekin' Broken Social Scene for the very first time!!! i knew this was meant to be, because my life is getting so much better everyday and this was one band i discovered in college that's been with me ever since. this was something of a chapter closer. to think back on how much i listened to BSS during the hard times is something rather difficult to do. but hey, now i can actually look back and enjoy them for this wonderful and AMAZING night!!!

it was a great vibe...

from what i gathered, this was the last show of their tour. after this they were to take a break then eventually hit up the spring and summer festivals. there was an opening band, but i'll get to them in a lil' bit. so, since this was their last show they pulled no stops and jammed their way through almost three hours of music. i kid you not, they played four encores. seriously!!! i was ecstatic and in a daze. this has been marked as one of the best concerts i've ever been too. very few in my life hold that title, and it's really hard to make it to that level, but right here and right now, the timing was just right.

frantic and spastic was i during this shot...

BSS tore it up and i'm forever grateful for such an inspirational night. oh, and i got lost coming home, but thanks to god up high because i remembered my phone had gps!!! it's already paid for itself!!!

ah, and one more thing to mention about this past weekend. i got The King of Limbs and as i write this i'm currently jamming it for the second time ever. it's a grower, but really, all their albums are. (i promise to get to them sometime in the future. for that i will need to dedicate a lot of time and energy. i promise it will be good...)

so, going back to the mysterious opening band i briefly mentioned, they will be the focus for this post. it's rare when you get a really good opening band you've never heard of. it's really REALLY rare when the opening band stays with you the rest of the night and makes you want to write about them as quick as you can. for today, here's a band called, Zeus.

straight up, these cats look like The Band, and when they first started playing that's who they reminded me of. the band was a classic rock act during the 60's and they played magically. they were also Bob Dylan's backing group. anyway, zeus reminded me sooooo much of them, which i'm sure they get a lot. oh, and these guys do the triple vocal harmony thing, which also reminded me of, Crosby, Still, Nash and Young.

hailing from toronto and ontario, canada, this rather newish band plays with a good sense of indie rock quirkiness, but also a great amount of talented effort put forth. even though they are our neighbors from the north, i felt this strong sense of americana and a bit of an oklahoma twangy yelp. if they were from here, they'd fit right in!!! so yeah, these guys set the mood for the rest of the night and i was sold instantly. they were an unexpected welcome and its awesome when that happens at concerts. so, if you like the old school bands i mentioned above as well as Elvis Costello, Led Zeppelin, Calexico, Drag the River, Wilco and Bob Dylan, then you will like zeus. why is that?? BECAUSE ZEUS, GOD OF THUNDER COMMANDS IT!!!

ah, and as for their music we have their ep titled, Sounds Like Zeus, and then their debut full length, Say Us. dig it...

http://www.mediafire.com/?alx30zxt7osc1sc

http://www.mediafire.com/?1q4jkvnd0on

high times...

Photographs...

2011-02-17T17:28:00.000-08:00

the week has been one of fluctuating levels that i can't quite grasp. i'm soooo glad tomorrow is friday. and i'm also glad that kristy will be with me that night. so anyway, it's time for another posting and i'm happy to be doing it. last night's post was just a reminder that i'm still here. ah, and just a heads up, i will be in tulsa this sunday to see, Broken Social Scene, so if i haven't posted again by then, well you know where i'm at. one of the better things to happen is me getting my own phone. yes, it's totally lame to be geekin' over it, but alas, it's just a progression that details me going my own way and growing up, or something to that effect...

here's an old pic of me that was hunkered between some old rusty machinery...

yeah, so the camera on my phone is freekin' AWESOME!!! i have always wanted a digital camera and now i got something even better!!! i love how many options i have to mess with the pics. heck, the one below was used on this app called, "retro camera." i think it speaks for itself...

old school schuyler...

ok, i'll stop with the drooling and get back on point. the work week is about to be over and the three day weekend is going to start soon. (i'm off on monday!!!) this blog means so much to me and those of you who read it mean so much to me. its my duty to keep it going and i hope to forever do that, or at least until the zombies take over...

hey, you know how i sometimes write reviews on here for some artists and such??? well i have a new one to post on and it's for a band called, Tyburn Saints.

what a SURPRISE this was. i get an email one day asking me to give this band a shot. i wrote back with a yes and they sent me their debut full length in the mail. its such a good feeling to be doing this, but just so you all know, i'm not going to post a review on every friggin' thing out there under the sun. no, the space i use to write these reviews is only for artists i like and believe others should too. tyburn saints happen to be one of those who's music i demand people try out.

so yeah, once i popped in their album titled, For the Benefit of Strangers, i was immediately struck across the face with the lo-fi, yet loudly crushing guitars. this band from brooklyn, new york, who make a wall of sound that would cause phil spector to be proud, enveloped me and took me along for the ride. needless to say, it wasn't a bad drive to work that morning. anyway, soon come the voice of lead singer, Johnny Gimenez, who made me scramble my brains to determine who he sounded like. this comes with a huge amount of respect for Johnny because the guy sounds like, David Bowie, mixed with Nick Cave and the lead singer of The Magnetic Fields, Stephin Merritt.

i knew from that point on this was going to be a good one. i jammed the album twice that day, allowing my self to absorb the musical craft and dive into the nice production. not to forget the rest of the team, there's Chappy, the man who plays keys, glockenspiel and accordion, Andrew Reed, who plays bass guitar and more guitars and also does vocals, and finally there's, David Parmeter, who plays drums. these fellows make/made up the band and together they create this wonderful collective organism that's hauntingly euphoric. yeah, i love this stuff...

this is an awesome debut album and one not to miss. songs that grabbed me where, "bells" and "she murders me." there is a nice personal quality that comes from the music and it fits right in with my huge amount of love for this kind of style. the style i'm referring to is what i've listed in the labels. tyburn saints play a smoothed out post-punk/lo-fi/shoegaze/jangly style with lots of reverb. you can hear bands like, The Jesus and Mary Chain, Galaxy 500, Ride, The Birthday Party and for a bit of the newer stuff, The National, Best Coast and The Pains of Being Pure at Heart. there's also a hint of 60's surf rock/girl group stuff and it seems to be their trump card. so catchy its not fare against your ears i'm tellin' ya!!!

i was told by mr. gimenez that he is currently working on demo's for a possible ep coming out soon. until then, you have their debut album and i want you all to give it a try. and no, i'm not going to post it this time. look to the links below for your source. (i gotta keep my eye on this band...) enjoy!!!

http://www.myspace.com/tyburnsaints
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Tyburn-Saints/26861779229
http://www.tyburnsaints.com/
http://tyburnsaints.bandcamp.com/

i'm a regular johnny walker...

Me miss you long time...

2011-02-16T18:31:00.000-08:00

Well ok, so as you can tell, I haven't been on here in many days. I do apologize for this, but hey, I actually have a life, so that means I'm sporadic!!! Oh, and I'm writing this using my new phone and I'm totally geeking out over it!!! Ha ha

I promise that I will make a true post tomorrow night. I'm just busy with all sorts of things, so its cut into my playtime here. Oh, and in small, but amazing news, I'm moving to my first apartment very soon!!! I'm Soooo stoked on the thought of me having my own space. Lots to think about, hmm...

Alright, so that's that. No music here, except for a quick suggestion. Listen to post-punk, shoegaze, 90's style emo and electronic music all at once for an eargasm. Dig it...

What a wonderful world...

2011-02-13T19:12:00.000-08:00

oh my goodness, oh my GOODNESS!!! what an amazing weekend i've had!!! i can't just sit here and write nonsense words without using my skills to describe how awesome it all was. ok, so friday night started off good with me and mike going to the blue note to watch, The Cancer Bats. oklahoma locals, Over Stars and Gutters, opened the show and they were solid. the cancer bats were crazy awesome and further down below you'll find out about them for this post. heh heh ;)

me and "big" mike in da hood. (seriously...)

saturday began with me going to work to fill in a few hours for all those snow days we had to take. it was nice and relaxing, so i was grateful for the chance to do it. the day went on and i ate pizza at my grandma's then met up at mike's house to gather with the crew. you see, mike's wife, chealsey, had her cousin, john, come up from stillwater to hang for his late b-day party. he chose bricktown, so we ventured out to the strip and hopped around all night. it was a total blast and i'm soooooooo glad i made the effort to go. i don't get out much often, especially with close friends, so this was a real treat. uh, i think the pictures below are enough evidence...

me and mike eating sushi. (he was a noob!!! j/k)

the gang right before the sake bombs exploded...

buffoons fo sho!!!

so anyway, the weekend was a blast (like i already said...) and today was just as great. i got my dad to close our old phone account and now i'm starting to pay for my own service. included in the deal was my new HTC 4G smart phone. it's a touch screen and flippin' awesome. i just spent over two hours foolin' around with the set-up and applications. woo hoo!!!

alright, like i said, me and mike saw the cancer bats, so i think they deserve this nights music banter. uh, so without further adieu, here's The Cancer Bats.

this is a band that hails from toronto, ontario canada. they formed around 2004 or so, with the effort to make straightforward music that combined their love for bands like, Black Flag, Refused, Led Zeppelin, Black Sabbath and probably d-beat, 70's-80's styled punk from england. their music is intense and brutal, but not in a jokingly, "deathcore" kind of way. (nothing against deathcore. to a point...) watching them friday night, i was reminded of some recent acts over the past few years i've seen like, Every Time I Die, The Gallows, The Bronx and perhaps some other artists that haven't been seen yet like, The Melvins and F*cked Up.

if there happens to be a chance to see these guys, go do it. they are totally awesome and put on a great show. they tore up the tiny stage friday night at this bar and there were probably only 30 people there. that's hardcore and it's what music is all about.

for the music, we first start with their self titled ep, then swing on by to their first full length, which is the album, Birthing the Giant. this is an awesome album by the way!!! right, so after that is their second full length, which is titled, Hail Destroyer. and after that is their latest full length titled, Bears, Mayors, Scraps and Bones. (really awesome album artwork there!!!) listen up and listen close. PLAY THIS LOUD!!! dig it...

http://www.mediafire.com/?mwlfarmmjhj

http://www.mediafire.com/?mgynqkojona

http://www.mediafire.com/?iwjjhmzgya2

http://www.mediafire.com/?nhqllyzmtzc

and now it's time to say goodnight...

Runny Nose...

2011-02-10T17:14:00.001-08:00

ugh, i think i'm getting a bug or somethin'. my nose is stopped up and runny and my throat is sore. this stinks because it means i'm a walking disease. no kissing for me!!! eh, oh well, not all is bad though. i'm still here and enjoying my life a lot more than in the past. i can't help but smile right now as i type this!!!

i wanna make this short because i'm meeting kristy in a bit to have dinner. for this post i'm making a mark for a band i totally missed out on last year. they go by the name, Bo Ningen, which is japanese and i think it means, "stick men"...

okay, so pay attention here, because i'm going to have to explain a lot in a short amount of words if i can. bo ningen is a four piece band from london, england and are one of that nations rising talents. they have been highly praised by fellow rockers, The Horrors and by musical press, nme. to describe their sound, take the heaviness of Black Sabbath and Lighting Bolt, mix in the garage rock roughness of, The Sonics and The Mummies, then stir that with the noise punk spasticness of Melt Banana and Arab On Radar, and you might have a close idea of what this band is all about.

actually, what i listed above is only a taste of the craziness this band does. as i was writing the above paragraph, i kept thinking i'm hearing freekin' King Crimson and kraut rock like, Faust, Neu! and Can. it's no wonder they toured with ex-singer, damo suzuki, from can... anyway, this is really bogus and it's keeping me interested to the very end. it's j-pop turned on it's head and farted on. bo ningen are amazing and come highly recommended!!!

for their tunes, in first place is their debut ep titled, Koroshitai Kimochi. and after that is their self titled debut full length. oh, and just for a warning, these songs are all sung in japanese, so don't freak out

http://www.mediafire.com/?hod1hryjdnn

http://www.mediafire.com/?n21l0y97ajveyd7

Bo Ningen play Koroshitai Kimochi (live at the George Tavern, London, UK) from Esper on Vimeo.

cough drops are needed...

Cabin Fever and Chips...

2011-02-08T16:03:00.000-08:00

complicated things are filtering in my head, but for once, it’s not so bad like usual. i am able to shift my thoughts around more better and with that, i manage to keep myself from hurting or becoming depressed. now that is an amazing feat for me!!! i guess it’s all related to the “stepping stone” or my “next step” whatever process. it truly feels as if the next chapter is upon me and things are starting to take better shape. for the past several years i’ve been in the dark, confused and lonely. but now, oh man, now it seems like the adventure is FINALLY about to begin. i’m very excited!!! some of the events happening are me finally moving next month to my own place, improving at my job and enjoying it more, not being sick as much and then there’s miss kristy, the girl whom i’ve been dating a lil’ while. it’s the bees knees!!!

for some more closely related events about to happen, there is the possibility of yet another snow storm brewing. i honestly have no idea when it’s supposed to hit, but sources are starting to all say that it’s either this afternoon, or later tonight. i’m stoked because i love the snow, but the bad is the travel condition to and from work and school. all that, and plus my dad has to work until midnight or one a.m.. (he works for the city and is in charge of snow clearing.) yeppers, it seems like we may be in for another huge dump. all that snow looks like the nasty diaper remains from a baby snowman…

ok, so next thing i want to do is a little bit a free writing. the style i’m choosing is a sporadic approach and one that might get weird, so for your own information, get ready…

occasionally i will imagine myself in a combat/war situation. i don’t know where this comes from, but i do it once in a while. on this tour of duty, i focused on the things that aren’t really of the norm. in the scene of chaos all around me, i was lying flat on my belly, trying my best to take cover and not get killed. as i was laying there, breathing heavy and scared to death, i turned my head over and stared at some ants climbing a plant branch. what stunned then was not the war being fought in all directions and people dying, but instead it was the notion that these living things were spending their time living their own way of life amidst the conflict in their backyard. they crawled and climbed their way up and down the branch, taking their spoils of root matter and fly wings to their secret underground dwellings for later use. sure they probably took notice of the 200+ pound man lying there, breathing hot air on them, but this didn’t phase them. they had a mission to do and so did i.

after collecting myself and getting my wits in place, i surveyed the zone around me and had seen that nobody really took any ground. we were stuck and being picked off like cows in a slaughter house. i rolled onto my back to see where my nco was. i hadn’t noticed when i originally landed in my bombed out crater, but i had leapt onto somebody guts. my left foot was tangled in this person’s bowels. i don’t know where the body was. all that was there was this mass collection of organs and chunky bits of flesh torn off as if someone was tearing pieces of frybread.

i kicked dirt onto the bloody pile, trying my best to ignore what i did and saw. i gripped my weapon tightly and started to pray fast. “Dear Lord, please save me from this battle. I want to go home and see my family. I want to go home and start my own family. I’m sorry for my sins. Please forgive me and please help me to live.” my eyes were close so hard that they almost started bleeding. my ears rang louder than any concert i’ve been too and the ground shook as if it were being tumbled in a dryer. all this agony made me breakdown and i started to cry out loud. “Stop it!!! Stop it you F*ucking Bastards!!! Stop It!!! Stop it!!! Stop It!!!”

just then my nco crawled over to me and began rubbing the back of my neck. he told me to calm down and take cover. as he said this more bullets and shrapnel flew over our heads. at any second we would hear the signal to push forward and try our luck against a determined enemy. i coward at the thought of standing up. was i just someone’s pawn in this almost unnecessary battle??? naw, i couldn’t bring myself to start thinking like that. tons of other men in war have thought the same thing and it seems cliché to bring it up. what am i worried about??? my nco gave me another smile and said, “Just you wait man, this little ditty will clear em’ up over there!!! Just wait and watch the f*cukin’ show dude!!!” and with that, i heard the loudest noise i’ve ever heard in my entire life. the whole world seemed to shake and crack. if this noise was being shown through speakers or television, the circuits would pop and burst from the extreme pressure and ferocity of it’s magnitude.

after everything seemed clear, we stood up and witnessed the awesome, yet terrible power we held. the land before us was cleared like the forests of south america. i looked on and saw smoke slowly rising from the ground. it must be spirits lifting i thought. after that my cell phone rang…

right, right, right. ok, so yeah, i think i needed that. just a lil’ free writin’ is all. lol yeah, so let’s talk some music now shall we??? the next band i want you all to check out have been around for a long time and have a special connection to the punk scene here in america. they go by the name, The Mr. T Experience.

this three piece started back in 1985 and are one of the best and most cherished bands of the berkley, california music scene. they play very nice and catchy pop-punk and write songs with a great emphasis on personal reflection and uplifting anthems. they are well known in the bay area and also for playing many times at the legendary 924 gilman street d.i.y venue. this club is famous for getting many of today’s well established acts their start. bands like, Green Day, AFI, Rancid and The Offspring have all cut their chops at this local club and that makes it special. so, if you happen to dig the above mentioned bands, or any of the california/berkley/bay area bands like, Jawbreaker, Dead Kennedy’s, Crimpshrine, J Church, Operation Ivy, Pansy Division and NOFX, then the mr. t experience should be just right for you!!!

and as for their music, i'm not listing their entire discography, but instead just their choice cuts that i find to be their best. these are my personal faves and also take note that they were originally released on the independent label, lookout! records, and are a staple of the 80's-90's calofornia punk scene. in first place is the album, Love is Dead and then the album, Revenge is Sweet and So Are You. both of these came out in the 90's are are a big part of my young life, so remember with me while we jam the mr. t experience!!! dig it...

http://www.mediafire.com/?xmq5mbelmhk

http://www.mediafire.com/?anzqaiyyhze

Ba ba ba ba ba...
Ba ba ba ba ba...
Ba ba ba ba ba...
Ba ba ba ba ba...

My life 'til now
Has been filled with doubt,
Here I am,
'Cause there's no
Other place I can go,
But I can see
You're a lot like me,
So maybe you know
Somewhere people like us can go,
Where we won't get kicked out,
'Cause we've got a lot to talk about,
After years of research
I think I've figured it out:

It's the little things that get you down,
It's the bigger things that you can't get around,
And it's way to flat on the middle ground,
But everything else is wide open.

So let's go,
Ba ba ba ba ba...
Ba ba ba ba ba...together,
Ba ba ba ba ba...
Ba ba ba ba ba...

Teacher please,
Don't be such a tease,
Give me some kind of sign,
Not detention this time,
The things that we used to do
Have been turned into a zoo
By people who say
All the things that we used to say,
And if we say them again,
We're gonna sound just like them,
After years of remorse,
I think I've taken it in.

It's the little things that get you down,
It's the bigger things that you can't get around,
And it's way to flat on the middle ground,
But everything else is our oyster,
Everything else is a picnic,
Everything else is terrific.

So let's go,
Ba ba ba ba ba...
Ba ba ba ba ba...
Ba ba ba ba ba...
Ba ba ba ba ba...together,
Ba ba ba ba ba... (Yeah!)
Ba ba ba ba ba...

Cheesecake...

2011-02-06T12:47:00.000-08:00

so far so good for me. totally happy and about to go to a superbowl party at mikes. just thought i'd make my mark for the day on this here bloggy thingy. man, i live writing on here!!! i'm excited to get to the music, but first i just want to give a shout out to kristy for picking me up and spending saturday afternoon and evening with me.

yeah, so yesterday we went to penn square mall and first stopped at the cheesecake factory to stuff our faces, then proceeded to the bigger parking lot. the plan was to check out macy's and get some new cologne for myself. i accomplished this feat and also came back with even more!!! i have a new wallet, a new belt, a new pair of pants and the memory of watching The Kings Speech. yes, we checked out that movie and it was fantastic. truly worth the hype and such a heartfelt, moving piece. i was pleasantly surprise by how mellow, yet engaging it was. i think i needed that. movies aren't always this good...

right, so enough with the cheesy fluff and on with the music!!! once again, i have been floored by a new band that takes elements from the past and reinterprets it into something fresh and new. the band i want you all to check out today is called, Joyce Manor.

when i write about bands, i make it my job to often list related artists so as to help those who don't have the chance to listen to the music right away. it takes just a little bit of this and that to notice similarities and then write what i believe are the right parallels. for the band joyce manor, when i first listened to their demo album and then their self titled debut full length, i immediately thought of the following bands: Jawbreaker, Capn' Jazz, early Alkaline Trio, Hot Water Music, Built to Spill, J Church and The Jazz June. Maybe even a lil' bit of Pinkerton era Weezer... and that's the best i could come up with while jammin' their tunes for the first time. their music incorporates soooooooo many influences from the wonderful 90's midwest and present orgcore scenes that's it's almost unreal. there is a lot of talent here and you best be paying attention.

(i as type this i'm hitting replay for even more of their music...)

joyce manor is a young band from torrance, california. they have recently been signed with hardcore centric music label, 6131 records. standing out from the ferocity of hardcore bands, joyce manor take a more melodic and emotional approach. needless to say, if you know me and all the stuff i list here, then it's pretty friggin' clear that this band hits all the right marks. GET IN ON THIS NOW!!!! I AM SUPER CEREAL!!! NNNNOOOOOOWWWWWW!!!

ah, and for their music i'm skipping a few split albums i think and just going for the gut. first is their gritty, Constant Headache demo, then their freekishly amazing self titled debut full length. i ask you all once again to trust me and check this out. i'm fully backing this band and i want everyone else and their dog to as well. listen to joyce manor and dig it...

http://www.mediafire.com/?zymiznwzyzo

http://www.mediafire.com/?efm55nrlnssf6cq

i don't even know who's playing in this years superbowl...

Ice Breaker...

2011-02-03T17:35:00.000-08:00

hey readers, i've been gone a few days and trapped by this crazy weather we've been having here in oklahoma. no kidding, it took me almost an hour and a half to get my car out of it's parking spot. good thing i had my zombie killin' bat in the back end because without it i wouldn't have been able to break the ice on the ground!!!

since work was canceled for two days, i spent all that time with kristy. to say it was fun would be an understatement... IT WAS A BLAST!!! lol no really, i believe we had an awesome time and it was great to be that close. getting to know someone you care about is a wonderful and exciting experience. i think the pic below is good proof!!!

it's pretty rare for me to smile this cheesy...

so yeah, it was like that. ah, and this next leads me to one of the best moments that came along. yesterday we both were picked up by her friend and we went to one of my co-workers family's house. over there we ate and watched the thunder game then played a lot of really fun board games. the night was topped off with everyone standing around two tables and playing this addicting card game called, "nuts." this was my first try and i was a bit slow, but i soon got the hang of it and had a wonderful experience. this whole ordeal sort of reminded me of my family and how we "sometimes" get together to have good times. i just wish there was a lot more of it...

ok, so overall this was probably the best winter storm i've been through. you can't beat good company and yummy snacks mixed with radical movies and television shows on dvd. (The Office, Chappelle's Show and LOST...) after all was said and done, i had to sit back and slowly recall everything that happened. it's another good memory i have and i seem to be getting more and more of those lately. KEEP THEM COMMIN'!!! ha ha it was ecstasy...

oh, and speaking of ecstasy, here's a band that did a ton of it!!! let's all give a big cheer for, Primal Scream!!!

yeah yeah, drugs are bad, but in this case (is there really anything i can say that would be "for the drugs" and not against them???) they seemed to have been used to their potential and as such, matter-of-factly, this would make even die hard users like ken kesey proud. uh, what i'm getting at is primal scream were heavy users (and still might be...), but that doesn't mean they should be written off simply because. naw man, they are killer and have made some of the best alternative/whatever kind of music since their start back in 1982 in glasgow, scotland.

they were originally a sort of garage rock type thing, but eventually moved into the psychedelic/pop/dance direction. this all happened during their breakthrough years in the 90's and the album, Screamadelica, is the shining star here. it was during this time that they were a part of the acid-house music scene in the uk and also a part of that whole "madchester" thing up north. so it gets real simple now. if you like any bands such as, The Happy Mondays, Suede, The Stone Roses, Spacemen 3, A Guy named Gerald and My Bloody Valentine, then primal scream are just for you.

not enough can be said for one of the best albums EVER made during the 90's. Screamadelica has it all, shoegaze/dream-pop/brit-pop/soul/psychedelic/dance/acid/pop/indie/rock and probably much more but i just don't want to create any more labels. if you are interested in this, be sure to check out some of my favorite tracks like, "higher than the sun" and "damaged." enjoy!!!

http://www.megaupload.com/?d=PXOJ445D

sorry about your ice scraper kristy...

Rocks My Socks...

2011-01-30T17:27:00.000-08:00

well now, ain't this a surprise??? it seems i do have some faithful readers out there!!! thank you all soooooooo much for checkin' in on me and my obsession with writing whatever comes to mind. as of right now, what's happenin' is this oncoming winter storm. i think it's either hitting tonight or tomorrow night, so i better get this post down asap!!! good thing i'm in such a happy mood at the moment as well, because if i wasn't then this post would have been put on the back burner...

let's see, so far it's been an extremely awesome weekend. me and kristy hung out friday night and ate dinner with some of her family then watched movies together. i got her to check out Evil Dead II for the first time!!! lol oh, and she made me watch, Easy A, which actually wasn't all that bad. on saturday i tried out this new sushi place near my house and it was pretty darn good. oh, and then i wandered over to the local buy for less grocery store and got a ticket to see Jimmy Eat World live at the diamond freekin' ballroom!!! seriously, i felt like i was 16 all over again. oh, and while i was there, i got to hang out with several local buddies whom i've met from going to so many concerts around here. it's pretty cool when you get to meet new people who are a part of this whole network of local artists trying to make their way in the scene. there were guys from local bands, Streets of Thieves, John Moreland and the Blackgold Band and Red City Radio. a most excellent night indeed, but to top it all off, matt, lead singer from another local favorite of mine, Over Stars and Gutters, gave me permission to write about them on my blog and post their tunes, so big thanks to the guy and his band mates. let's get started shall we???

so, like i said, the band i'm currently going to write is named, Over Stars and Gutters and they are awesome. ya digg???

a quick apology for the photo above since the band has had a major lineup change since then, but it was the only black and white photo i could find and for some reason, i think black and white pics are timeless and add a certain mystique to the bands. anyway, OSAG are a local four piece band that started back in 2007. i first got to know matt and his gang from a friend i met at community college. that guy was named richard and he played in a local ska/punk band named, Third Grade Scuffle. matt was the lead singer for them, so that's how this whole thing got started. i went to a few shows before the band kind of disappeared, (moved on i'd say...) and for a little while there was nothing going on. the oklahoma city music scene seemed to be at this standstill and all the venues that catered to punk rock and DIY ethics closed down. (green door R.I.P.) so yeah, i moved on to college in santa fe and lost track of my home state for about four years. not many shows in between, just stuff in new mexico which i hated for the most part. so, to get to the point, i graduated, came back, and discovered what had happened in the mean time. matt went on to form OSAG and other local acts popped up like the one's mentioned way up above. i was pleasantly surprised...

"orgcore" had entered into my vocabulary thanks to the fine folks at punknews.org and the org summit. the gruff style of singing that's been made famous by acts like, Leatherface, Hot Water Music and American Steel, has evolved into this kind of virus that's spread across the world and many bands are making good use of it. not to pigeonhole any band on here with a sort of copy-cat mark, it's all meant for the good and when i post about it, you can assure i mean well. i don't want to spend my time posting on bands i don't like, so bleh...

OSAG are orgcore, but also special in their overall attitude and style. it's bittersweet emotion mixed with temperamental shifts and that's exciting to me. there's the punk rawness of matt's voice and the personal lyrics that are sung with heartfelt meaning. it has this overall feeling of youth and passion that has been built up for so long and then finally set free. you get this sometimes when listening to certain band's first recordings. it's a special quality that's rare and you won't find it on mxtxvx. needless to say, this is good music and i'm proud of these guys for sticking it out and playing their tunes, not matter what age or time we all find ourselves in.

and so we finally come to the music. skipping their split casette with the band, Virgins, in first place is their wonderful debut album, Consider This Your Curse and after that is their new 2010 demo. this latter piece is certified fresh and i'm stoked to check it out. matt mentioned about how it's more straightforward and uptempo, what, with the new lineup and all, so yeah, totally boss. give these a listen and also check out these links to their sites. support local music ya newts!!!

http://www.theblacknumbers.com/artist_overStarsAndGutters.html
http://www.myspace.com/overstarsandgutters
http://overstarsandgutters.bigcartel.com/
http://overstarsandgutters.bandcamp.com/

http://www.mediafire.com/?qouzzndtqft

http://www.mediafire.com/?3mbggmr71jubza7

right off...

In A Constant Heaven...

2011-01-27T17:48:00.000-08:00

there is a serious pain my right arm. from the elbow up to the shoulder. those who know me will find this familiar. i’ve had some serious trouble with my right arm ever since i almost threw it out in high school baseball. it’s a nuisance and one that gets under my skin to the point of annoyance. seriously, i haven’t had a good sleep on my right side in over ten years!!! and i prefer to sleep on my side yo!!! ugh, this sucks…

so, last night was a good event. i picked up my buddy from the airport and we caught up quickly. not to sound super cheesy, but it felt like she had been gone FOREVER!!! heh heh, yeah, i’m totally cheesy and i like it!!! this coming weekend should be eventful, what with me having actual stuff to do instead of just laying around the house like my cat joshua… well, there is something i could do that will take some of my time away, but i’m thinking that i should wait a bit longer before diving into that. i’m of course talking about Dead Space 2!!! i just got it tuesday and finally got to use my best buy gift cards from christmas. oh man, this game looks sick!!! it also came with the original nintendo wii game, Dead Space Extraction, which is an on-rails shooter/prequel to the original game. they upgraded the graphics and implemented the new playstation move controller, which i’m now a sucker for. (i’ve played it at mike’s and it’s awesome!!!) so i guess this means i got more bang for my buck. all i need is a move controller and some time to kill and i’ve got an eventful showcase ahead of me. bbbuuuuuuuttttt, i think i’d rather do the important things this weekend like our annual Indian Falls Creek meeting and spending time with kristy. oh, and saturday night Jimmy Eat World is playing here in okc, so yeah, video games can wait. besides, i sort of want to purchase a bigger and better hd tv before getting involved in something as epic as dead space 2…

since i feel a little more happier and happier each day in these new times, i think the music should reflect that as well. for today’s post, i want to focus on a band that was a great find for me back in 2003. they go by the name, The Rapture.

Picturethe rapture are a post-punk/dance/indie rock band from new york city that started back in 1998 in san francisco i think. they quickly gained recognition for their intense, yet catchy and insanely fun live shows. they also arose during the post-punk revival of the 2000’s, alongside other acts like, Bloc Party, Interpol, The Killers, The Strokes and Editors. i usually held the rapture up a little higher because their music has this incredible flow and beat that makes you want to dance and dance hard!!! back in 2007, i finally got the chance to see them live, which was at Coachella. they performed right after LCD Soundsystem in the dance tent and it was a rowdy show. i bopped and weaved like i knew what i was doing and guess what??? nobody cared!!! we were all dancing terribly, but at that moment it didn’t matter because the music was so darn good and the atmosphere was amazing.

as of right now, the band is currently making their fourth full length album and going on as a three piece. i think the future is still bright for them and that their epic has yet to come. and for the tunes, we have four listing here today. first is their debut full length, Mirror, then the ep titled, Out of the Races and Onto the Tracks. next we have their second full length, Echoes, and if you want a great place to start, here would be a good choice. this is my favorite of theirs and it's a mad crazy good time. and lastly we have their third full length, Pieces of the People We Love. yep yep yep, that's it for now!!! grab some and dig it...

http://www.mediafire.com/?9o5nfx3q07rg7oi

http://www.mediafire.com/?jbi13yoeru53snl

http://www.mediafire.com/?sm649wab36brwb7

http://www.mediafire.com/?em2p8rt1r49szsg

shake down...

Green Chili...

2011-01-24T16:18:00.000-08:00

things seem to be spreading about in the schuyler camp. i'm enjoying the sudden change in attitude and lifestyle. i feel as if the next step is upon me finally and i can move on from this basement of shame and depression. ugh, just thinking about my past makes me sick to my stomach, but amazingly, i can now look upon it with an academic sort of mind frame. a history lesson in what not to do i suppose. and gratefully i now have somebody close that can make the days better and turn my mind away from such awful feelings and thoughts. (big shout out to miss kristy!!!)

she caught me at a vulnerable moment...

ok ok, enough with that cheese. i want to go to norman and buy some lp's for my new vinyl collection that i'm wanting to start, so let's get this music thing over with. in recent email correspondence, i've been given the chance to review a new artist and their debut album, so let's get going with the duo known as, Night Surgeon.

from the press release sent with the cd i got in the mail, it says that these guys hail from portland, oregon and i'm thinking, started around 2000 something. eh, sorry for not knowing the exact date of inception, but these cats are a little hard to find. of course don't let that keep you from checking them out!!! their music is pleasantly surprising. now, based off what the press release has quoted, these guys have been compared to artists like, Depeche Mode. Cut Copy and Placebo. i can get behind those and agree. lead singer patrick replogle does have a similar vocal style that can remind one of brian molko, but i don't want to stop just there. often when listening to music, i end up thinking of many artists all at once. i like to try and pinpoint where certain musicians sit in between those who have already established themselves. to go a bit further, i'd say i was reminded of roland gift from Fine Young Cannibals. yes, that band FYC. no seriously, his vocal style reminded me of roland and i find that an awesome link. replogle does the glitchy music justice, while not relying to heavily on studio distortion for his vocals which often can hamper down the tunes. i want to see this performed live now!!!

oh, and let's not forget john boyd who supplies the live drums and piano. combined with patrick's live guitars and synths, the duo creates a miss mash of this past decade's better moments. there's traces of techno/dance as well as new wave synths and chiptune/mega man blasting through robot bag guys type of jams. saying these guys are just like similar indie pop acts Passion Pit and Owl City, would be a slap in the face i'd say. (no, i didn't compare them to those two. i read that somewhere...) night surgeon is their own unique sound and style and by golly, it freekin' works!!!

while jammin' through their entire debut album, Day for Night, i was taken aback by the crisp, yet clean production. this comes courtesy of studio wiz, gabriel espinosa, who has worked with artists such as Blondie and Fischerspooner. the music follows simple, yet dynamic patterns that rush the listener along as if they were riding tidal waves. the atmosphere is calming, but with just the right amount of rushing and free falling that it can get you caught up in the moment. if i had to make any complaints, i'd say it comes from the repetitiveness of a few songs. they do seem to follow the same sort of rhythm and style, but this isn't a major, nor a terrible issue because thankfully we have the slower tracks, which in my opinion, are the albums best kept secrets. track three, "roman error" and track six "better to be young" are my faves. this is where the fyc comparisons took root. also, if you've ever jammed Yeasayer's latest effort, Odd Blood, you will find solace here if that hasn't happened yet.

overall, i'd say this debut warrants a strong listen and if i had to rank it, i'd give it an 8/10. do pay attention because this is something refreshing and hopefully useful when it comes to making a choice between good music and bad music. night surgeon = good!!! owl city = baaaaadddddd... oh, and i also want to give a big shout out to patrick for sending me an advanced copy of the album and for getting me in on the know. please visit their myspace to jam the tunes and grab this album when it drops on february 15, 2011.

https://www.box.net/shared/static/n00chkro8c.mp3
http://www.myspace.com/nightsurgeonpdx
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Night-Surgeon/103439243048888
toodarkrecords@gmail.com

video coming soonish i hope...

meep meep meep...

Dude Bro...

2011-01-20T17:06:00.000-08:00

(take note that this post was written on tuesday, but not posted till thursday...)

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“there's a feeling i get, when i look to the west, and my spirit is crying for leaving…”

who or what is this feelin that haunts me??? you know, that little thing that makes you follow along towards your own personal doom. i guess an easy answer would be the word “sin.” now i’m not going to divulge into the areas that sin corrupts and resides in because it’s everywhere. no, instead i’m just gonna say that i hate sin and everything associated with it. of course, i sin everyday, so i’m not perfect. ugh, things sure can be confusing, but when i think about them too much, the idea for whatever it was i was thinking about becomes stale and eventually just falls off into the unknown…

is there a point to all this??? i have recently come to known that yes, there is a point to EVERYTHING!!! and as of this moment, i think i’m possibly getting started on the next phase, the newly christened “second half” or something to that effect. i’ve met somebody special and i can’t help but make a huge shout out on a wolf at the door. she’s an amazing person who makes me happy and i couldn’t ask for anything more. where will my life lead me now??? i have no idea, but for once in a very LONG time, i’m super excited!!!

oh, and just to let you all know that i do have a life outside this blog, here's a pic of me and my best friend mike. i think were smiling to much...

to shake things up in my schedule, i’m going to the conservatory tonight to see a few bands i like. the headliner is the focus for today’s music listing and that band happens to be, Fake Problems.

here’s a hardworking, young band, from naples, florida, that formed in 2005 and have become quite the highly recommended type for fans of the orgcore style. simply to say, if you dig bands such as, Against Me!, The Gaslight Anthem, Hot Water Music, Look Mexico and O Pioneers!!!, then these cats should be able to pluck your string. their music style seems to cover a wide range of areas such as folk/punk/pop and alt-country. their recent full length, Real Ghosts Caught on Tape, was critically acclaimed and made many best-of-the-year lists for 2010. seeing this band tonight should be a real treat and hopefully they will have some awesome shirts for sale!!! yay!!! CHEESY as all get out!!!

ah, i wrote all that above and made it sound like there would be no tunes for ya!!! well fear not because you'll find the good below!!! right, so skipping all the split albums, singles, demo's and their first four ep's, we meet the album, Spurs & Spokes / Bull Matador. this is actually a collection an ep and some demo's i believe. after that is their terrific debut full length, How Far Our Bodies Go. this is closely accompanied by the seven inch, Viking Wizard Eyes Wizard Full of Lies. in the next spot is their second, and often most cherished album, It's Great to Be Alive. and then finally, in last place, we arrive at the polarizing, yet amazing album, Real Ghosts Caught on Tape. crack down on these and get ahead of the rest because blowing up is hard to do, or something like that... uh, what now???

http://www.mediafire.com/?1oksfdkn10b

http://www.mediafire.com/?imgtnqmyd0k

http://www.mediafire.com/?y01xnwooyty

http://www.goodfriendsrecords.com/images/gfr%20webz.zip

http://www.mediafire.com/?71d8c77301syo33

she's got me...

Two ice cream cones please...

2011-01-15T16:00:00.000-08:00

what a super feeling i have right now. my spirit is lifted up high and i feel soooooo good!!! i had a special friday night with a special friend and i left with a huge smile on my face. i went to bed thinking about how awesome a time i had and i just hope things will get even better!!!

okay, so it's now saturday and i'm just enjoying the time i have. no work on monday so yay to that!!! ha ha, i just can't express myself in words at the moment. i can't even begin to describe how i feel without saying something cliche. TOTALLY AMAZING!!! OMG!!!

alright alright, i'll take it down a notch and write some music real quick. since i was in the presence of a lovely young lady last night, i think i'll write a bit about another lovely lady who made freekin' amazing music. i'm not afraid to say, it's Siouxsie and the Banshees.

legendary post-punk from london, england, siouxsie and the banshees are one of the best, most cherished bands from punks past. they, along with several other early acts, are considered gothic rocks beginners. lead singer siouxsie sioux, along with bassist steven severin, formed in the band in 1976. they often followed The Sex Pistols during their early years, learning about making music their own way and how "anyone could do it." the band released their debut album, The Scream, in 1978 and thus, their career as an incendiary post-punk band took off. they toured all over the world and eventually broke up in 1996. they reformed in 2002 to play at that year's Coachella Valley Arts and Music Festival and have been dormant since.

many artists from all styles of music claim this band as a direct inspiration. LCD Soundsytem, Jane's Addiction, Radiohead, TV on the Radio and even DeVotchKa lay down their facts about direct influence and admiration. so, with all that, if you like a few old schools acts like, Joy Division, The Cure, Gang of Four and Public Image LTD, then you will most certainly like siouxsie and the banshees.

as for their music, i'm listing my five favorite albums. we first start with their fantastic debut, The Scream. listen to their cover of The Beatles classic, "helter skelter." next is the album, Join Hands, followed by the album, JuJu. after that is, Tinderbox, and then the amazing album titled, Peepshow. check these out and enjoy!!!

http://www.mediafire.com/?yxb56e1a29a275d

http://www.mediafire.com/?zmtmymnjgmk

http://www.mediafire.com/?zmjkz3mnydn

http://www.megaupload.com/?d=UGT7B0V3

http://www.mediafire.com/?exijn5gw0zx

need some gelato...

My Elbows Hurt...

2011-01-13T16:31:00.000-08:00

oh goodness, goodness. what a week it’s been so far. i’m currently really happy and i have no qualms with anything. actually, i feel a bit lighter, and what that means is i’m floating on a cloud. being relaxed is a welcome relief and i hope it last forever.

i don’t have much to say, so i guess this will be a bit short. regardless, this blog must go on and it’s my passion to express myself as well as educate you on hopefully good music.

as i write this i’m jammin’ an older punk band who are well below the norm. here’s some loveable anarchists that go by the name, Rudimentary Peni.

rudimentary peni are a british anarcho/death rock/punk band from that little place called, the uk. they formed in 1980 and are still together, playing their witty, macabre inspired music to legions of devoted fans. the band has close ties with crust punk legends, Crass as well as hate towards joe strummer and john lyndon among other things. their debut album, Death Church, is often listed as one of the best punk album ever made and has become a staple for those just getting into the genre. if you happen to like a little bit of the dark, as well as anarchist tendencies (or just the idea…) then this band might fit right in with your music collection. heck, i just like hearing their sounds. it’s raw, crunchy and highly energetic which is how i like it when it comes to punk. for fans of The Damned, Sham 69, G.B.H., Discharge, T.S.O.L., The Addicts and of course, Crass.

oh, and like i already mentioned, their debut album, Death Church is amazing and it's what i'm jammin' right now. grab hold of this and go pogo, or something to that effect. dig it...

http://www.mediafire.com/?dnn2wz4wwvn

anarchy is eh...

Put some pink salt on it...

2011-01-10T16:01:00.000-08:00

there is a change in plans, or maybe just temperature. you see, here in oklahoma we’re getting’ some heavy duty weather comin’ our way, so we have to plan accordingly. i need to make sure i have enough anti-freeze as well as warm gloves and a sturdy ice scraper. my car is an oldie, but a goodie, so i know it will take care of me when the time comes. during all this, my main concern is the icy roads. driving on ice is crazy work, but i’m used to it. you just gotta be careful and not rush things, because when you do, you’ll get yourself in trouble and screw up something fierce.

so, as for this past weekend, saturday night ended awesomely with me hangin’ out at my best friends. he was throwing a small wedding anniversary party, so i had to attend and wish them well. it was a blast and reminded me of all the old times we’ve spent hangin’ out. oh, and the night was made even better because i finally got to meet (sort of) this nice girl whom i’ve been trying to get in contact with for a while. heh heh, funny how things work eh???

going back a bit like usual, i want to remember this one indie/pop band who were sugary sweet, yet dark and personal in tone. today is about the band, The Lemonheads.

here is a little band that’s been through the tumblers and back. starting out in 1986 and gaining popularity in the 90’s college/alternative scene, the lemonheads (from boston, massachusetts) are a great band with personal lyrics and a creative sound. their style is mainly indie/pop, but when jammin’ their long history, there is a strong connection to punk as well as the twangy sound of country/folk. to this day, the sole constant member is lead singer evan dando and his approach to music is best described by the bands name and meaning, “sour on the outside, yet sweet on the inside.”

for the tunes, there is one album i want to post on and that's their breakthrough lp, It's A Shame About Ray. the original release had 12 tracks, but later editions added the band's cover of the Simon & Garfunkel classic "Mrs. Robinson" for which gave the band one of their most successful singles. some of my favorite standout tracks are, "it''s a shame about ray" "my drug buddy" and "rockin' stroll." yep yep yep, here is something a bit old, but still good. have a blast from my past and check it out...

http://www.mediafire.com/?jbuwexjxgfz

The Lemonheads - Rockin Stroll
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icy roads ahead maybe...

Tis a time of the season...

2011-01-08T17:03:00.000-08:00

Tis the weekend and ye, schuyler deal of moore-alot, is going to ye powwow at tis fairgrounds. it should be a loyal event, with jesters and good eats. ye, tis me will have plenty offers from young madam's eh??? we will see, be it so, i will not leave unless i have acquired 20 digits!!! alas, at the end, i will face the dragon of the cold and ice, for monday we will be under it's spell and driving will be considered too dangerous. all in good faith though, that we will be safe and sound and have no trouble going to church on sunday. ah, and as of right now, me is eating a reuben sandwich and drinking a rockstar energy. it is time for me to make way, so ye, you kind hearted folk, give yeselves the time of day to make things right in your life. eat well and be merry because we are getting shorter and shorter. embrace your lovers and kiss your children, because sometime soon, we will no longer be able to. ye...

alrighty, so for tonight i want to post on one band who not many know i think. well, not many outside of the uk. they were prominent in the 90's brit-pop scene and are still here today. ladies and gentlemen, here's Manic Street Preachers.

the manic street preachers formed back in 1986 and hail from blackwood, wales. they arose to local fame and became known for their glammed up punk attitude and songs about "culture, alienation, boredom and despair." the original lineup consisted of lead singer/guitarist james dean bradfield, bassist nicky wire, drummer sean moore and rhythm guitarist, richey edwards. during the 90's the band made their prominent mark in music, and released their breakthrough album, The Holy Bible. shortly after this, richey edwards disappeared and has been missing ever since. he was declared deceased in 2008. this tragic event would haunt the band for the rest of their careers, but despite this unfortunate circumstance, they are still making music and touring for the sake of their art.

today you will find the album i mentioned. The Holy Bible is a force to reckon with. the songs blast by with sheer magnitude and the lyrics are of a very personal nature. tis a great record i say, and one not to be missed by ye younglings out there. grab hold of this and bask in the glory of the manic street preachers.

http://hotfile.com/dl/61451468/8150899/M_-_HB.rar.html

I hate purity
Hate goodness
I don't want virtue to exist anywhere
I want everyone corrupt

I am an architect, they call me a butcher
I am a pioneer, they call me primitive
I am purity, they call me perverted
Holding you but I only miss these things when they leave

I am idiot drug hive, the virgin, the tattered and the torn
Life is for the cold made warm and they are just lizards
Self-disgust is self-obsession honey and I do as I please
A morality obedient, only to the cleansed repented

I am stronger than Mensa, Miller and Mailer
I spat out Plath and Pinter
I am all the things that you regret
A truth that washes that learnt how to spell

The first time you see yourself naked you cry
Soft skin now acne, foul breath, so broken
He loves me truly this mute solitude I'm draining
I know I believe in nothing but it is my nothing

Sleep can't hide the thoughts splitting through my mind
Shadows aren't clean, false mirrors too many people awake
If you stand up like a nail then you will be knocked down
I've been too honest with myself I should have lied like everybody else

I am stronger than Mensa, Miller and Mailer
I spat out Plath and Pinter
I am all the things that you regret
A truth that washes that learnt how to spell, learnt to spell

So damn easy to cave in, man kills everything
So damn easy to cave in, man kills everything
So damn easy to cave in, man kills everything
So damn easy to cave in, man kills everything